A Merry Christmas...without deppression

This Christmas was alot more merry since my others here in Dallas. Saturday 12-23 we had our 2nd Fellowship alumni reunion dinner. We all met for the 7pm service at FC and then went to dinner at Cantina Laredo. My two ex roommates and their wives also came with. Christmas Eve day and and Christmas Day was spent with David and his family. I picked him and his family up for church Sunday morning, and then we came back to watch his brothers while they went out to celebrate their anniversary. We all picked up the house, then went to the last Christmas service at Fellowship which was their first time. We came back for pizza and hung out and talked.

I had to work Christmas day, but then headed over to David's for another amazing turkey dinner. We then exchanged gifts between David and I , while his family watched, then watched scrooge the movie, tossed the new football around that David got me and then I had to head home.

Last night David wanted all of his best friends to hang out with him and do something adventurous. We got snacks and then headed to downtown Grapevine, Texas and started walking down the train tracks for over 4 hours till 2am in the morning. We had a really good time, lots of laughs, lots of rapping and of course David making us all feel right at home with his humor.
This Christmas was alot better. For over 10 years I have suffered from depression, it really sucks, it almost got the best of me, but I am glad for my close friends that I have call at times in the night to let them know I am not doing good. Very appreciative for David and Josh who would swing by on the way home to check up on me, and make sure I got to sleep alright before they would let themselves out. David, and Matthew Smith finally talked me into getting on medication, last Friday the doctor ran test and since I have never been on medication, it has taken affect right away. I am so glad for that, because I was starting to ruin some friendships.

Tomorrow my parents get in town, and David and I will go pick them up at the hotel and then our parents are going to hang out and go for dinner. Saturday night they will be going to FC 5pm service and then head back home, this will be dads wife first time at FC. I also remembered I have my first ever blind date this Sunday night. Yes I am nervous. It can't be to bad, I am going out with one of the "Coors Light girls" YEA

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Waiting for the sun to shine again...

I know it is probably hard for people to imagine, but for many, many years I have been suffering from depression. It is hard to admit, but if I want my friends and family to be real, open, and honest with me, then I need to be as well. Well over 10 years, I have had depression spells through out year. However, these past two years have been really hard, and I have really tried to find my inner peace with God to continue to keep going. I know I am suppose to be here, but the voices keep telling me, that I am nothing. I know that is not true.
With the strong support and influence I have around me, I have found a doctor, and I have my first appointment this Monday at 2:30pm. Since my friend has been so on my ass to get checked out to see if I need to be on antidepressant medicine, David was the first one I called to say hey, here is when my appt is. Without hesitation, or me asking him, he said " You know I am going with you to that appt". I told him that was not necessary and he said , "YES, it is, I am one of your best friends who really cares and I want you to know, it will be OK" How cool is that, a friend needs no excuse to be a really good friend when needed, and I don't even have to ask.

Today is the passing away date of my mother Patricia Jean Thompson, I can't really believe it has been 8 years, but time does fly by. I am glad she still guides me through my day, and I know her and Christ still have a guiding hand on my life.
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Pearl Jam visits FC... A new past time sport

This weekend at FC was amazing, Ed did a salvation message with video from one of his hunting trips to Andros Island. He did his message from the inside of a really nice fishing boat they brought out on stage. The opening song was "Life Wasted" by Pearl Jam. After the message he had an invitation for everybody who said the prayer and accepted Christ into their heart to come to the front and talk with someone. The first service must have had at least 150 people come down, it was awesome.

After the service David called to find out where I was and I met him and Joshua at the tennis courts for a quick game. We drove back to his house to change, swung over to my house to cook some food and wait for Skittlez to call so we could go meet him. David and I are starting a new sport, it is boxing, of course with full protective gear, but I will be kicking his ass in. Us 4 head over to this park at 11pm and begin to box. David and I have never, so we decided that it will be a real light match just to see how it goes. Well if you know me, about 30 sec. in I popped right into the mouth and cut his lip open, and the rest of the fight was not so light. It was really fun and we are going to be doing it 1 a week, just to get our frustrations out. This week will be kind of hard because it is the passing week of my mother and her birthday. I will end with that..

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7 months of change-worth it...

I have been here in Texas for some time now, and 4 years to be exact have led me down a long road. My thoughts have been not a waste, but a question as to why God did you bring me here? Last night was an exclamation point on 4 good years. David Thompson led his first bible study and I was apart of history in the making. He let everybody know up front that he was given this CD on love and a friend of his tries to live out this CD, which is me. My faith was so encouraged, my spirits were lifted, my hope was restored, my vision for life was reborn. I am not perfect but if there is one thing, I try and live out is a life of love. With all of my friends that know me, one in particular has been experiencing new life with me in it, showing him what it is like to live a life of love, demonstrated through faith, hope, peace and of course lots LOVE,

Love is patient, Love is kind, Love does not envy, Love does not brag, Love is not proud, Love is not rude, Love is not self seeking, Love is not easily angered, Love does not keep a record of wrong, Love lets go of hurt, Love does not delight in evil, Love does not hurt people.
Let's go deeper shall we...
Love always protects - love covers the wrongs of the other person.
Love always trust - and believes the best in someone else.
Love always gives people the benefit of the doubt.
Love always says, "I believe in people".
Love is to risk being burned over, over, over, and over again.
Love always believes and trust in people too much.
You will believe the best out of the people you trust the most.
Love always hopes.
Love is hopelessly optimistic - Love NEVER stops hoping.
Love is not about me, but you.
Love refuses to take as failure as final.
When you love somebody, you are hoping for the best in them.
Love always goes the distance.
To Love is to risk getting burned.
When you stop loving, you have lost.
Love never dies, Love never says, "I quit", Love never says, "Im finished", Love never says, "im through", Love never says, "no more", Love never says, "I give up"
Love will never give up, it will die trying.
Without this Love, we have nothing.
The only thing that counts is Faith expressing itself in Love.
I have been burned, and burned again, but I have come to the conclusion that I don't really know how to love my God, my self, and my friends and family like I should. I desire, and deserve a heart of love. I don't want to protect myself anymore, that is selfish. I have learned without love nothing else matters. I hope this Valentines Day, your love is like the one I am longing for in my own life.
LOVING you through faith expressing itself in love. randall paul thompson
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Time for Thanksgiving, time for friends

This weekend was exceptionally full of thanks and lots of giving. It had it ups and down, but overall, hanging out with my little brother who has turned into my bestfriend and his family has been a blessing in disguise. I had to work thanksgiving day, came home took a nap, and then headed off to David's. We played a little football, then helped with the finishing touches with getting ready for dinner. The feast was amazing. We then all loaded the van for the annual after feast bowling. Played lots of videogames with his brothers, and then headed back home for a pingpong competition between David and I.

This was the last weekend I saw my mom alive, my 4 year anniversary of coming to Dallas. Also this Sunday I celebrated my year of coming to faith with a real relationship with Christ 8 years ago. One of my other good friends JJ Junge got feeling back into his legs and is now at home back in Branson maxing and a relaxing. We had a great time as you can tell this is Joshua, one of Davids other best friends.
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Happy Thanksgiving... My life has been blessed

Wow, can you believe that this weekend I will celebrating so many different things. Unfortunately this the last weekend that I saw my mom alive. I miss her terribly, but I know God and my mom have been guiding my paths.
This weekend I also will be celebrating my realization of my need to put my faith in God. He has created me for a purpose, and the road has been a complete joy with a few bumps along the way. I know I am supposed to be here, and being an impact in people that Jesus puts into my path.
Lastly, I will be celebrating my 4 year anniversary of coming to Texas and being apart of one of greatest churches in America. Fellowship Church remains in a place that only other churches dream of getting to. They refuse to stand still, not to be boring and always tell the truth in a compelling and creative way. Last weekend the Fray "Save a Life" was sung for the offertory song before the message.
God continues to put people in my life, one that I am so most grateful for is my new little brother David Thompson (picture above.). Yea we both laugh that God has crossed each others paths, but we both know that God wants us chilling together. That is for sure. Please pray for me and my friend David. God has been really working on the both us individually, and this week has been no exception. These past few nights we have been up praying, encouraging each other, and crying out that God will not stop with what He has been doing in the both of us until the 4am hours of the morning. Some things require sacrifice, and this kid is no exception. He has been hurt too many times and I refuse to be another person that hurts his soul.
Him and his parents individually invited me over to celebrate Thanksgiving with them, since I now am part of their Thompson family. They know it is a hard but exciting holiday and they want to be an extended family that have already shown me lots of love and support.

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a friend in need of prayer

I had a very disturbing call this morning from my father. A friend of mine from Branson had to get another surgery done on his hips. The doctors hit a nerve and he has no feeling in his legs. Please pray for my friends JJ Junge, that the God we all know will heal his body and restore feeling back in his legs.

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It's been a while, ya I know. What's UP???

Life is good as it can get, I am very busy, with my new job, going to counseling and of course hanging with my crazy best friend who is like a younger brother, I never had. As you can see David is trying to crack his back in the bed of truck, that is not his in a gas station. It's never boring with him around. Change is in the air, and life is looking up. Please pray for me and my friendships that the good ones will grow and for the not so good ones will just slowly fade away.
Last Monday, one of our cooks-Ricardo and his family flew back home to Mexico to be with his mother which is dying of throat cancer. Debbie and I's heart broke as he came in to say goodbye and realized what he was going to have to do is soon bury his mother. My thoughts, prayers and love go out to them.
This past weekend was my 1 year anniversary at Blue Mesa. Saturday I worked, then came home to watch the Huskers sneek past a victory, worked out, then off to FC for the 630pm service. I met up with John and Shelly Ammerman and saw his sister who is on her 3rd time of having cancer, which I have not seen since I was 8. We were going to go celebrate, but Davids parents had to go out of town unexpectedly, and so he was stuck at home all weekend watching his younger brothers. One of his best friends is a rapper and had his first gig at a club, me being the nice friend that I am, let David go instead and I watched the boys late Saturday night. We woke them up, headed to church and then out for lunch. Came back played a quick game of football, and then picked up his parents at the airport. Long weekend but well worth the time.
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Happy Halloween... A time to try and rejoice..

Debbie my gm of the store, David, and I went to go hangout at a birthday party in south Arlington last night. This was not any special birthday party. It was for a friend who we work with whose mother is dying of cancer of the throat. Debbie asked me to go for support and of course when David and I were talking at 3am in the morning this past Saturday, I told him I really don't want to go. He assured me I would be fine because he is going with. I thought he was joking, only because he has so much other stuff to do that would be more important. He replied "what would be more important than hanging out with my best friend who needs my support in a rough time". She has cancer really bad and only has less than 2months to live, and she leaves to go back to Mexico this weekend to finish out her time. The party was hard to be at, but you can tell they love their mother to pieces. Please pray for this family that God will give them strength as they will need it. Tonight was the end of the regular season for Davids volleyball intramural. It ended with a blast. His whole family went even the 3 little brothers, me and his other best friend Joshua who was the one who really taught him how to play volleyball, after his two/one games won. After the big win we all went back to the house for apple cobbler and ice cream. Once again good times had by good friends.

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Here is the question

What do you get when have the 2 Thompson brothers + Phi Theta Kappa + Karla Kimber= no not a drama, but Boo at the Zoo. David invited me to help and hangout with PTK for their yearly volunteer services at the Ft Worth zoo. Kids come for 3 hours the last 5 days of October for spooky games and it was actually lots of fun. Not lots of going on, hanging low, tossing the football a lot, and just chilling and taking life a bit easier. I would indulge a little but at this particular time I am kinda not in the mood . Life is continuing, I am still losing weight, anxious about the upcoming holiday season, but in a real somber mood.

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Silence is Golden

This weekend at Fellowship was an awesome service that God really met me at. I went to the 6:30pm and 10am on Sunday morning as well. The theme of the weekend was on silence and What's The Point.--It's the most basic, yet profound question we can ask. But so often, we get distracted and set aside our quest to uncover the reasons behind what we do. The routine of everyday life keeps the answers at bay, And for Christians, life gets to be all about a list of do's and don'ts rather than about the God we serve. In short, we end up missing the point. This weekend there was no smoke, no moving lasers, no lighting changes, just a quiet worship to reflect on how God can speak to us through silence They had lots of video and a segment on questions that we read on the screens and two songs played, one with a song leader singing, but no congregation. The other just instrumental with only the words on the screens while the cameras panned the stage as it was all lit up with about a 100 candles. It was a very moving service. Today I decided to block out all distractions for me personally, that meant no cell phone, no t.v., no radio. I was humbled as a I realized that I can hear and feel God more when life's noises are not up and running.

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Brothers gotta hang

This weekend was no exception to having fun with one of my best friends David Thompson. Twice a month we try and do something fun, wild and crazy. So Friday night was bound to be a blast. We started off the evening at 7pm with Thai coffee, which for D's first time he loved it. We then went and looked at Hyatt Reunion tower that has a revolving restaurant on the top that I have never been to see. We had a appetizer that kinda sucked. The view was awesome. The next stop we had a quick tour of the W Hotel which was so contemporary and sheek. Then we went to the Martini Ranch for a drink and an appetizer. I then showed him where I use to live in the Village by SMU where he might take his last two years of college at. Then went to go see the largest Half Priced Book store, which is huge. After that we went to the Iron Cactus in downtown Dallas for dinner and walked around the downtown till 1am.

Saturday I had to work then we went to a friends 21st birthday at his house and was able to throw the football around, which is always fun, however it was a little rainy. Sundays I have been going to Restoration Church with David and God definitely was in the house and the service was amazing. Enjoyed the normal Monday night volleyball game and David 's dad Sr. went along with which was fun. Oh yea thank you for the Biology lesson on leaves producing water on the way there David Jr.

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Are you ready for Friday the 13th?

I have a really good friend who has had a really tough week, and has experienced an extreme amount of undue stress, from family, personal, and work. Most people don't get real concerned with tomorrows D-day, but I have friend who would really covet your prayers. He has the privilege of being a pallbearer of one of his past students who died earlier this week in Bellevue due to not wearing his helmet when he was skateboarding. I talked to my friend earlier in the week when he needed some encouragement. I also was a little down and wanted to receive my own encouragement, but he needed to just talk and release and I am glad that I could lend a listening ear. So tomorrow when you wake up and go about your day, say a prayer for my friend Shane around 10am. Life is about listening, caring, and supporting the ones who might need it.

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Thoughts on friendship...

I will warn you, I am going to babble, but it will be beneficial.

Friendships come and some go, but the good ones will always last longer than the rest. My sighs are long, my tears are heavier, and my heart you can read in my lack of facial expressions. Why does friendship have to hurt when it is not supposed to? You are supposed to be able to trust what your friends tell you. You never doubt, you always believe, and hope is always on both of your minds, tongues, and hearts. How do you know when God brings a person into your life that you know He wants you to be friends with? How can you trust that you are making a good judgement call when you are alot alike, and also a little different? When you choose to be friends with someone, and your old school friends don't agree with your decision, you lose out on the ones that have made such a lasting impact on you, why can they not just accept your decision? Can friendship be as good as it has been for a while, or can you rest in the fact that sometimes you just need to breathe a little? Then you realize that time has passed and you have had a total blast until Satan throws a wrench into the friendship.

I firmly believe that God brings certain people into your life, that will make a lasting imprint on you and them on the world. YOU know you are supposed to be friends, but you are fighting your spirit of fear, peace, hope, and someone that you get along with so much. You have never ever been exposed to a friendship like this. Should you let it go, or should you fight for what you have found- a friend who knows you better than yourself. A friend who looks up to you in all situations, believes in you, trusts you when you step out a little and lead, enjoys introducing you as one of his best friends with pride. What happens when that fizzles, when the hope dies, and the love of a friend is entangled in fear. He pushes away his interest in the truth, that he knows you have and desire him to grasp onto as you have, and as he is a witness to the all life changing path God has rescued you from.

When you are 95% there and you see your friend who just has one link to his chain away. He is still being held back from unleashing his spirit that has so entangled him for the last 2 years. How do you let your friend know that the one link he needs to release and COMPLETELY give to God is the link in letting go of past relationships and past hurts from those old friends. In return he's scared, of being real, open and honest and fears of being rejected that might throw him back into the past. He is scared of being hurt, only cause he has been hurt so many times, but always wants to be positive, loved, and wants to be liked. He has been betrayed too much and always is guarding his heart, which will never let him be himself. He is so overprotective of himself, but in a good way of his friendships. You cant let go of hope, you cant let go of the good times, and certainly can't let go of a God thing when you both realize God wants you to be hanging out for a long time.

I close with this, people are not perfect, people do fail, make mistakes, but when they get stripped of all they hope far, they then can lean on their friends. Friendships are a gift, cherish them always, keep the basics basic, and always hope for the best close to your heart. I do that always, Im doing that now, and will continue to never ever give up on my friends, that's a promise.

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Back in the saddle again..

We flew back to Dallas Sunday night, Monday went back to work and every Monday I watch David play volleyball. He has been wanting me to come check things out at his church called Restoration Church and so Tuesday we went to the college and career group for a bible study, which was really good. Wednesday was checking out the youth group that he is a leader of, and Thursday was the stand prayer service that I went to by myself. Friday night was out with friends, Saturday was FC, and clean my car, wash clothes, clean apt and have some alone time. Sunday picked up David for church at 10am in which we were really late. Then I hung out with a new friend who is the senior pastors kid of Restoration Church that David had introduced me to a month ago. We went to dinner, and then threw the football around while talking with his parents, which are really cool parents for being pastors.

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What tequila conference, SURPRISE

David and I arrived at 1015am on Thursday Sept. 21. But what you don't know is that the Saturday night before which would be Sept 15, I had a bit of a fall. I was chasing my little brother down a flight a stairs and I missed the last two that went to the left, and of course severely sprained my ankle. I was desiring to have a whole week off, but of course not at this expense. At 1am in the morning we made it to David's house and crashed there, while he helped keep my ankle iced and elevated all night. Wow, do I have a good friend or what. Tuesday after I woke up, looked at my foot that was purple on both sides and green on the top, made me decide to go to Care now, and find out what I really did. Luckily the nurse and Dr. were both smoking hot females.
Back in MPLS, and while we were waiting for the bags and Eric Smith to pick us up, David had to ham it up, by jumping over tall trash cans and finding a wheel chair to push his big brother around. I was not thrilled.

Dad got in around 1pm and we all went and picked him up at the hotel, and then headed to the 5.8 club for some good old "Juicy Lucy's" burgers( cheese in the middle not on top) and they were awesome.
Hung out with Patrick Ley my other best friend from Mpls at the Mall of America, went to a concert with Eric and then to an Irish pub for some brews and we hit the sack the first night around 5am.
Friday was the big surprise that we set up at the Mall of America and Victoria was surely surprised to see Dad. Friday night Dad, David, Debra, Andrea and I met 10 other of Victoria's closest friends at 7pm Bucca in St.Paul for an awesome 2 hour dinner. After that we met up with Nick Ritter that is from Blue Mesa @ DFW airport that use to work with us, and we went to hang out with Eric Smith and his friends. David and my niece andrea finally hit it off and hung out since they are in the same age group. The highlight of that night was I got to meet a Roller Derby girl named Mary Gold. She had the most amazing smile and teeth I have ever seen on a woman. She lit up the room when she walked in. That night we got to sleep around 4am. David is night person, I am but not that late.
Saturday was run around and get ready for the big surprise party for Vic, and so Dad, David and I ran errands, which was not all that fun. Got back to Vic's condo so Dad could spend some time with Vic before he headed for Branson and we headed for the party. David took a 2 hour nap in the sun porch as it poured down rain. We left to pick up Ritter, and hit the party. David and I were the bartendars and Nic helped out with the food, which was pretty much done. The karaoke machine was a hit and we stayed until 2am while David and Andrea were chilling together.

Sunday, we went out for a brunch, went to a record store, walked around Uptown a little, and then went to a contemporary art museum. It was harder for some to say good-bye than others. WINK WINK All in all it was a great weekend. David and I really needed to get away and just chill out with no pressure from life. Here is what I just love about our friendship. He took a 0 on a major test to go on this vacation in which we booked the plane tickets a month in advance. Basically his teacher screwed him and changed the test date, and would not let him take it early. I told him not to go and do the test, and he said nope, your little brother is going to support you. That is a true friend.

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Are you ready for a SEXUAL REVOLUTION??

Whether you are married or single, a parent or not, this powerful teaching promises to revolutionize your perspective on sex and bring a new level of understanding to your life. This I think will be an awesome opportunity to bring someone to church if they are just kicking the tires of Christianity or seeking out God in a new way. You won't want to miss a Fellowship worship experience, it's like no other. This weekend David, Donnie, and I are going to a Grapevine high school football game, if you are not familiar with fall events, you put a high school game on your Friday night calendar of events. Texas high school football is a big deal. I am close to finishing my apt, I bought a futon mattress, a computer desk, picking out my flat screen HD tv, and a new stack able washer and dryer this weekend. I found out that one of my best friends Matthew Smith is possibly coming to visit me in early October. This summer is not over, but we had over 45 days straight of 100' degrees and over in a row. It sucked, but the cool down has begun.

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Who visited Fellowship? Heading north. Stretched Summer

Summer is over, fall is in the air, college and NFL football has started and the Huskers have been kicking some ass out on green turf. This was a excellent summer for me, lots of growing and stretching. I am trying to get a hold of a computer guy to try and show me how to upload pics into my computer and transfer them from Beta to something else. I have not done this obviously. Sorry to all of my friends who want to see better pics of my friend David Thompson aka my new little bro. I am working on it.

I was talking to a friend on the phone and they asked me if I had the summer to do over, would I ask God to rewind time and do it all over again. I wouldn't, except for my friends suicide attempt in my appt. That part I would like to not do over. God removed a good friend from my life and brought in a an awesome man of God, that continues to challenge me in my view, stants, and relationship towards my God. David always wants me to think in the present and not in the past, only because he says then will I (RANDLL) keep moving towards my future. If you want to hear something really funny, he wants to have a double wedding in about 4 years, he knows God is saving an awesome woman of God for me to get married and both of our kids can play together. I am not sure about the kids part, my heart is slowly being open to think about marriage. In my mind, yuck, but hey it might be worth a shot, if God brings in the right woman.

This weekend was the series wrap up for Clueless, the worship team sang back to back opening numbers of The Fray with "Over my Head", and "Sending out a SOS" by the Police. They also intermingled (between each worship song), an excerpt of a pre-taped group discussion of how to get back into the boat of life, with God rowing the boat with-in their own personal lives while in ministry. The message was reminding us to try and look at our own life and see what stumps have entangled us and our spiritual life, and how not to get stuck in the sea of not moving in God's direction. It was an awesome service.

David and I getting ready to head north to Minneapolis to a Tequila Conference at Le Cordon Bleu in Dinkytown near the Uof M. If you are in the area and would like to see us in the evenings, that would be awesome. I am going to try and take some time to visit my sister once or twice, but I know her time is always jam packed. We will be there Thursday Sept 21 at 1030am arrival on Northwest Airlines and depart at 530pm on Sunday Sept 24. DROP me a line, and lest hook up.

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When you have time for time and friendship...

When you make time, and have the time for friends, they know it, appreciate it, and desire more of it, you know it is a good thing. This weekend has been a celebration of an exciting summer of beginning with new friends that you just know God wanted you two to meet. David my new little brother and we went to Stand on Thursday, then swimming. Friday I told him to plan what ever he wanted and he raised the bar and we went to a comedy club. The headliner was the bartender from the Drew Carey show. We worked together on Saturday, off to FC, then we tried to go out to eat at the restaurant of his choice, but we couldn't find Remingtons, and it is a funny story in itself. He knew we had to get up at 5am for the big event-surprise and us trying to go to bed and be sleeping by 10pm did not happen. He was too fired up for sleeping so we climbed out of the pool at 1am and then just stayed up and talked. Sunday night he had to work, and tonight we were going to do something outside but it is raining out. This past Thursday at Stand was a bit emotional for me, we have not seen the couple or the leaders of stand due to their daughter suffering a spinal cord injury. This poor girl was partying with friends down in Austin Texas and she attempted to dive into a river, and almost drowned from her injuries. Please pray for David and I, we feel God really wanting us to go show Gods love and forgiveness and we don't even know her, or met her. Her parents completely gave us their blessing with tearful hugs of emotion. " YOU don't know what that would do for bliss, she would really like that." Please pray for us. we will need it, we don't even know where the hospital is.

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Thompson's initiate in another Thompson???

Well, Debbie our wonderful GM finally got back from a week long vacation, for her great, us it was hell on earth. Welcome back. David and I checked out the MetChurch for the 2nd weekend in a row, and it was getting rid of the past, very fitting for the both of us. We are both trying to get rid of our past, in more ways than one. This past weekend David's parents went to a marriage conference and came home around 9pm and boy were we not ready for what was going to happen. I helped David watch his brothers the last 3 day a little. We got off from FC and picked up the kids, fed them and put them to bed at 9pm. We had just pulled out of the driveway when David's mother called and wanted to know where everybody was, we ran home and his dad wanted to share what he learned that weekend. It was a very moving 2 hour talk, and I was asked to sit in to listen since right now, I am really the only one so much involved in his life. David was extremely glad that I stayed to witness this emotional healing that needed to occur between father and son. David Jr. said that witnessing that was me getting introduced into the family, knew it was coming, but not that soon.This upcoming weekend will be an extreme weekend between brothers. You will have to see the pics on Monday, but it will be well worth it. We are going all balls out. GET'EM.

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Friendships come, friendships go?.?.?. TIM KASHER-who?

I am not sure how I forgot to tell everybody. But who that in walks- Tim Kasher, one of my friends from way back in the day from Upstream Brewing Co. in Omaha Ne. where we use to work at together. Both very surprised to see each other, but excited to catch up on old times. He was getting ready to start up his long European tour for his band the Cursive How do you, when you know you are supposed to let go of a good friendship of 2 years? What makes a person want to let go, but not want to give up, and of course-betray a friendship? Those are the questions that I have been asking myself and David. I love friendship, building a good strong relationship, but sometimes the cord has to be cut. I am not going to mention any names, but more than likely you will be able to figure it out. Yesterday, I had to say goodbye to a friendship, that I knew would be tough. This kid depended on me for everything. I really don't feel too taken advantage of, but the friendship was a little one sided in my book. This was the first time he ever had a best friend here in the states, and back at home. We started drifting apart, not clicking, not seeing eye to eye around 6 months ago, and eventually the chain had to break. He tried committing suicide on me, and of course I am, have been,and still trying to get him help. I just can't be there for him anymore. When you have an awesome friendship like Davids, that spurs you on spiritually, builds you up, and is always wanting you to raise the bar, (and is in his own life, without the use of drugs, alcohol, and sex) and not always pulling you down, but helping you to get back up, that is the type of friendship that at this particular time-I NEED. I wish my friend all the best. I gave that kid all I had to give that he can use a little each day for the rest of life, but it was never enough. You just keep getting burned out. I sent him a long email explaining everything, and I feel that God really wrote it, and He did, that when I hit send, it was like tons of weight had fallen off my shoulders. You want a good sign of friendship, David was really down in the dumps, depressed and NOT himself those past 5 days, and that is a good sign, you have a really good best friend. "Randall, when you are down, I am down, I don't like to see you depressed like that, because it hurts me to see your heart in so much pain." When I heard that, I knew I made the right decision in a friendship that will last a life time.

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One wild weekend...Currency, Cops, and Cooling OFF

David and I worked together this past Thur., Fri., and Saturday at the Blue. Thursday we were planning on going to StandUSA.com, but he got out of work late, it started around 7pm and he didn't get over to my place until 7:45p.m. We started talking and then we waited for our friend josh to call us back for us to ride with him, and he called us back when David was using my phone and we didn't get the voice mail back until 9:30p.m. Saturday we all met at David's house at 5:45p.m. and all headed to FellowshipChurch.com for the new fall series CLUELESS. CURRENCY-Dollars. Pounds. Lira Rubels. Euros. Pesos. The value of currency fluctuates daily with the market. But when it comes to God's economy, the market doesn't determine the value of His word to us. This weekend Ed Young taught us how we can cash in on some currency that really matters, currency that has the power to change everything, so that we are not-CLUELESS. We made it in with 5 minutes to spare as the count down began. We heard two girls yelling my name, and to my astonishment it was friends from TGIFridays at the DFW INTL Airport that I use to work with. I of course asked them how they heard about coming to FC, and Cara said well of course YOU. My heart began to really beat, she said, "I told my mom that I really wanted to get back into church and where should I go". Judy Razor replied with, "Well you know Randall moved down to Dallas for this church called FC and it is really close, and you should really check it out." Her sister Amanda just moved back from Phoenix and she wanted to go to and so Cara invited her and it also was the kick off for the new fall series. Deep inside my tear ducks began to fill, and I realized that if I never moved here, they might not of ever been exposed in such a positive way to hear about it, I would of never met Afif, and began a friendship with one of my new best friends David Thompson, that right now is priceless. His two other best friends Donnie and Josh were able to go with us, and it was an awesome service. The series opener was like a movie trailer and then the worship started with a intense get on your feet praise song with an awesome light show. The special song before the message was a drama with no words, just 12 or so people holding quotes, like ( I promise to get my homework done), and then on the back side was a letter that all spelled out "God Stays True while Eric Orson sang a intense song called "Chaos". Josh and Donnie went their separate ways after a little mingle at the house. David's parents took the kids out of town, and so David asked me to crash at his place unlike normally at mine. We both always to do something athletic and adventuresome, he wanted to climb on Trinity High school roof to talk, but I was not really wanting to do that. He said, "We are going to get a movie, but we are going to walk down this scary old abandon road that no one ever uses. On the way back of course, only 3 houses on this 1mile & half road with no street lights, this car is coming up behind us and of course slows down and stops only to reveal that it was the cops. Just lovely, we were not doing anything wrong, and after 10 minutes of them finally realizing that they gave us a ride back to the David's car that he had parked at the end of the road in a subdivision. We watched the movie, crashed, woke up to a nice morning swim, and then we went to check out one of 7 churches to see what else is out there. The MetChurch was really good

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Brothers gotta hang...

with the brothers. I have been trying to encourage David to hangout with his family a little more than normal for a college student that has 3 other brothers. Tuesday night is date night for his parents and he has to babysit a 7 , 9, 11 yr olds. I decided since we both know we need more patience in my life, I decided to hangout with him. His brothers went and got more friends to hangout with and we all played kickball in the yard, and then David and I took them to Cici's Pizza for dinner and video games of course. We all had a blast and then David and I ended the fun evening of playing tennis from 10:30pm till midnight. This weekend FC will be starting a new series entitled CLUELESS- the promises of God. I am looking forward to this series as it will help me to discover the promises I have in God for myself and David.

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Saying Goodbye to the past....

Well today is the last day of the weekend, I was able to hangout with one of my best friends David and we had a great time. We did go to the Stand prayer service and God really met me there and I know He met David there. It was a little different and out there, but I know we are planning on going back. This weekend at FC was on "Going Deep" in the area of recommitment and baptism. They had a special video message and a invitation to come forward for baptism, it was awesome. Next weekend Ed will be starting a new series, we get a new set/stage design and David and Donnie are going to start coming on Saturday nights to this series. David and I have been talking and we both realize God wants us to be in ministry together, we are not sure how that plays out, but we are examing the possibility of writing a book together. So please pray as we try to tackle that endeavor. David use to be the manager for the Trinity high school girls volleyball team and there was an alumni volleyball scrimmage Saturday night. He found out about it at church on Wednesday and invited me to go. It said it was very important for me to go, so not to make plans. Ok yea I get it this kid has an 8 pac, an all around great athletic body, but I have never seen someone play volleyball like that. He absolutely was powerful with his serves and spikes, and was a lot better than the girls who he use to manage. We had an all athlete participation dinner, and of course I had to come, it was a free meal. So that brings to my next order of business, David made the comment that he has been going to FC for a while, and "well Randall, you have not visited my church yet", so I went to the two hours service and then we went to Blue Mesa in Addison for a free all you can buffet before I begin to shed my past. David and I are starting a sugar fast for him, and I am doing the Master Cleanse diet for me for the next for 40 days. We also started the 40 Days of Purpose by Rick Warren as well. I am on my way to shedding a lot more weight, plenty of crap that I have been putting into my body and of course trying to better myself spiritually, this time I have a friend who is going along side of me. So far since Easter, I have lost 65 pds, 4 inches of my waist and have gained a lot more confidence, better self esteem, and of course I have been two blind dates and I am seeing a girl who is really interested in me. I am not, but the point is, SHE IS INTERESTED.

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God works in mysterious ways...

even at 4am inthe morning, that is forsure. I never thought that I would be linked up with such an awesome men of God, twice in my life time, once of course with Matthew Smith but secondly with a younger kid who is still wet between the ears. We are best friends, but we consider each other brothers. We laugh, joke, play sports all the time (volleyball, swimming, tennis, and of course football). He is a sophmore in college and a very active athletic young man, who stretches himself too thin. He does however make time for people who make time for him.

Last night was the first time that I had chatted with David since our vacation. My spirit was really uneasy, we had a pretty intense talk on the way home, and the meat of that was that "I spiritually challenge him to seek God with our nightly talks that (he had thanked me for alot and appreciated) always point David to seeking Him more, but he was not interested in moving along spiritually while going to college. He loves the ladies and just wanted to play the field, so I had a problem with that. I know deep down he did as well, but he has been able to build a very strong wall these last two years that he didn't really want God to knock down, until God put me in his life. I wake up Wednesday morning at 3:45am and was very sick to my stomach, at 4am he sent me two texts saying that he wants to get his life back in order in seeking God, and he wanted my help, support, and encouragement. My spirit was humbled with a smile, so I jumped into my car and went to go talk to him at 430am. He knew deep down I would come, and was thrilled to see me, we talked, cried, prayed and I left his house at 6am, I had to go to work you know.

The out come of that was my life was touched by God also and we are both helping each other by getting back on track spirtitually. I too have been running just like him, but we both know that God wants us to be friends and right now my life would not be the same with out him. We both hang out all the time, and we don't even drive each other nuts, which is a good thing. We are getting ready to start the Purpose Driven Life together and we are going to a non profit ornganization prayer service called Stand. I don't know much about it, we are going with Joshua another best friend of David's.

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Branson Bound was not a bust...

One of my new best friends David Thompson and I had a incredible road trip and our first vacation that was an awesome time. He was able to meet my two friends Clay Wheeler and JJ Junge which they all kicked it well together. We all stayed at the Falls Creek Resort in Branson.

I finally was able to meet one of my dad's best friend named Danny. This guy is a character and boy is he jokster. He is my dads age and his life has been put threw the ringer. Here is just some of things that Danny has lived threw. He has been struck by lightening, tried to help a girl who was getting gang rapped in an alley, and they beat him up and left him for dead, luckily the girl got away, his heart shut down and he died and went to Heaven and Jesus told him, "no, not yet" and he came back to life, the bottom of his heart does not work, he is diabetic, lastly this guy has had colon cancer for the past 5 years and you can tell he is really suffering, but drives, walks and encourages people to keep living life.
My father called me and humbled me and David to tears. Danny was so excited and thrilled to hangout with us for two days. Dad said, that he didn't feel no pain, he was able to sleep a full 8 hours, and that Dad should be proud that he had one of the nicest sons on the planet. With a list of attributes of me, I was humbled, because this guy was so real, open, honest, fun loving, that I thought I was so blessed to meet him, that he encouraged my soul so much that it was really hard to leave him. Danny told dad that David and I need to be in ministry together and helping young people live a more fulfilled life. I don't know what that means, but I know David is stoked about doing life and ministry with me, his new best friend.

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a friends first road trip...

I am taking one of my best friends from down here on his first road trip, which I can't believe. David Thompson and I will pull out of D-town around 2pm and head for Branson. He has been wanting to get away and wants to meet my father, and I have a couple of friends that we both need to visit. We are taking a rental car, our football we always toss around, he wants me to learn how to play tennis, so bringing some rackets, and "a lot of big game to flirt with the ladies." That is a direct quote from himAfif is not going, he will be holding down the fort here and watching the apartment.

Life has been so turned upside down after meeting this awesome person that we both agree God certainly wanted us to meet, hang out and establish a great friendship. There are only a few friends that you will meet that you get along and click with so well. We have a lot of people throwing there opinions in about our friendship, (including his girlfriend Bethany, ) but as he says, " I don't tell you who you can be friends with, and you will not tell me that I can't be friends with Randall". He is very protective of our friendship, and I can say that I am the closest to him than any other person I know of , (yes unfortunately) even over Matthew Smith.

Since march we have been hanging maybe once a week, and at my birthday we now hang at least 5 times a week. We both can honestly hangout with each other all day and night and not get sick of each other, and for him that has to be a good thing. He and I are very alike, both think logically, politically, and are spiritually alike in that "Christianity is relational, not so in your face. He is always up for a good time, very athletic, always on the go, and wants us to grow spiritually strong spurring each other on. I know you won't believe this but, I am doing a lot of changes in my life only cause he has challenged me to do so. I am more of a positive person and for some 15 years I was so negative that I have been slowly changing it. When I started hangin with him, my negativity now is not even part of my vocabulary or life. He has recognized a little athletic bone in my body, and that is why now even more, I am so on the go. I don't spend anytime inside hardly any longer, the blinds in my apartment are now always open, my window in my car is always down for fresh air. We love to go hiking, he DOES NOT LIKE FELLOWSHIP, but has been going with me for the last 5 weeks cause he knows, "that is a good opportunity for us to hangout, and I know that is what you want and like." We are always outside throwing the football, swimming and when we get back from the vacation he wants me to learn how to play volleyball better, and tennis, so "we have more time to hangout together." We are both learning how to develop better confidence and self esteem issues with-in ourselves and that is always a good thing. The down side is that since we both agree, we need to be hanging out together, we have both sacrificed a lot with other friendships. I try and encourage him to hangout with his other friends, since he is a sophomore in college, with a straight 4.0 in college, he barely cracks the books, but a good quote from him is, " I really want to hangout with you because you are so encouaging and such a positive role model in my life right now, and he always splits his time between me and then, his girl friend Bethany. He knows and finally lives my motto, "Bros before hoe's Randall."

With that I challenge you to not live life in other people's view points or opinions. We have had our times of trusting that we are making the best decision considering we are in both different age groups. I have always hung out with younger, or older and with this one it is a stretch. He is so confident that this is a good thing, that I don't even care and nor does he to hear so called friends opinions, and when I do, he is very in my face that we both need to be confident in ourselves, and no one else.

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What is a friend supposed to do

Everybody knows, atleast they should that I fully believe in friendships and the way God places certain people into each others lives. Do you want to see people make bad decisions or risk crossing a bridge that you know is going to have a few planks missing in it? I don't think so. David and I had a long much needed talk until 4 am last night. I had to just except the fact that friendships are a give and take and trust needs to be two sided. Believe in a person too much and later accept the fact that one day you might be right, but no need to rub it in the face. It's really hard when the person on the other side, believes and trust you so much with everything in their life. When you have a great friendship it comes down to sacrifice and hope, and for right now, we both are leaning on each other for that. I did get everything worked out with two friends and we are slowly trying to find our way back to where the friendship should be. This past weekend I witnessed another God encounter, with the take over of First Baptist South Miami by Ed Young and the staff. Fellowship church Miami held it's first services with Ed, Lisa, Eric Orsen, the worship team with the sky being the limit.

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Ready for a Flashback???

As I was on my way to pick up David for church, I got a call from a 402 area code, that I didn't recognize. It was John and Shelly Ammerman from Omaha that live next to me,letting me know that the family reunion had begun, and that Tim and Carla Ammerman were here in Dallas at Fellowship right now for the 10am service. So I waited for David to get out of the restroom and we made it in with 6 min. to spare. I tried to call them back, but no luck. We walked by the section that we normally sit in, and 6 people stood up and yelled, "Thumper." We sat down and said our hello's and I whispered to Tim and Carla, just remember this not a normal church, and they said, "we know that, just look at the sanctuary."

The count down to when the service begins, hit 5 seconds. The house lights went dim, bellows of smoke filled the stage while an explosive light show began while the worship leader and band exclaimed, "who is ready to worship at Fellowship today?. I wish I could of been quick enough, and I would of been able to catch both of their eyeballs popping out of their sockets. Right before the message, he asked me if this was a special service, and I said, no, it is always like this, but if anything it is little toned down since Ed was gone." After the service, they both said, "well we definitely know why you moved down here to come to this church, FC would never fly in Omaha."

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Brothers visit the hiding place...Dallas Night Clubbing....

Well, this weekend was definitely an experience I need to talk about. So, if you are one of those straight laced d*** Christians, than you might be let down if you continue to read this. Thursday, night I was able to hangout with a really great friend of mine who is really enjoying hanging out with me, and vice versa. David has been asking for me to take him to my hiding place and go hiking on lake grapevine and we did just that. We started hanging out around 5:300pm with a quick bite at Red Robin, (I just love that place, and it was his first time) then off to lake grapevine around 7:30pish. We started a very in depth conversation about the passing of my mom and everything that I have had to deal with because of that. It was great 3 hour talk that lasted until 9pm when we realized we needed to get back, considering it was almost dark.

Friday we worked together, and Saturday night after work I went to have a few to many rum and cokes at Cool River with one of our cooks Pablo who is 38 yrs old. We quickly run to his house so he can change and then head over to one of his friends house for a Mexican birthday party for a 4 year old. I was the only gringo present, but they took really good car of me, and then he tricked me into going to this "new club" to check it out. It was called Chicas and Bonitas, lets just say we were out of there in one hour flat.

Donnie and David asked me if I would take them to their first club experience. I am the only one both of thier parents trust for all of us to hangout with, so we got to Club Uropa at 11pm. It is the only club that allows for 18-21 year olds to get into in Deep Ellum. It was funny hanging out with operations manager who is 50 and then us. David is definitely the leader of the group, and immediately was out on the dance floor macking with the honeys. He has some pretty big balls, he got shot down a few times, but towards the end, he was the chic magnet. Got to bed around 5am, David spent the night on my brand new futon, and then we went to Fellowship in the morning with another 2 hour in depth talk about his issues during lunch, and how he sees me in his life as a older brother, role model, and friend.

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Rub the Buddha...

I have had the great opportunity of getting to know my bosses parents over the last several months, Buddha and bear. Bear is from England and I just love her British language. Yesterday bear went in for her check up and they admitted her into the hospital with complications with her heart. Buddha comes to the store twice a week, and we always have a great talk. He is retired, and a fiery pistol at that. He is great great older senior citizen who had 5 boys and 2 girls, a good solid catholic family. My new little brother is best friends with his grandson Donnie and that is where we hangout, play basketball and swim in their inground pool, and also some late night adult swims, of course not with the grandparents.

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Willow Creek Community Church still going threw changes...

Update on Axis July 2, 2006 www.generationaxis.com/ImNew/axisupadate.asp For 10 years, Axis services have been devoted to helping the Next Gen connect with God through high- intensity weekend services with relevant teaching, worship and art that brings faith into a clearer focus. But, as you know if you’ve been hanging out at Axis for any length of time, it’s about much more than a weekend service. It’s about the heart you have to make a difference. It’s about community. I know that every week there are groups from Axis reaching out to help the homeless, reaching people in prison and serving the under-resourced in our neighborhoods. Whether it’s within the walls of Willow, or out in the world, Axis is devoted to giving back and to getting involved. Axis is real people really doing life together. For several months The South Barrington Leadership Team and the Axis team have been partnering together asking God to lead us to a new vision for Axis. This weekend I spoke to Axis about the next evolution of our church and of Axis. One of the key distinctives we see emerging in our church is a heart for a healthy, diverse church with an intergenerational vision. To live this vision out, we are committed to serve and embrace the 20-something community as well as the distinctives of the Axis services. Axis is not ending, but the weekly expression of the Axis service is. The vision to reach 20-somethings has not changed, but how we reach them is changing. BBQs, gatherings, and events are planned for the summer, built around the Saturday evening service meeting time. So, the next generation of the Next Gen ministry is evolving. But before I go any further, let me assure you that Willow’s commitment to 20-somethings is firm. What will that look like for you? For starters--- Beginning next weekend, (July 8), Axis is invited to do church in the main auditorium. Sections 202 and 203 in the Mezzanine will be the sections where Axis will sit. Axis will have monthly Hangout/Go-out times after the service. (July 8/Aug 19th) We’ll Hang out on the patio and BBQ, and then Go out to participate in different interests or activities. Axis will get together on August 5. House Groups, Interest Groups and Serving Groups aren’t going anywhere. During the summer, they’ll continue just the way they are. Sixty of you have signed up to serve at Habitat for Humanity’s Blitz Build on July 22-29. I’m humbled by your commitment to serve and I think you will bring energy to the rest of Willow as we make the shift to an intergenerational church. I also spoke to a key staffing change for Axis. For the last two years, Darren Whitehead has led the Axis ministry. Starting this summer, he is going to devote 100% of his energies to leading our High School ministry, Student Impact. In the interim, Steve Gillen will lead Axis during through this time of transition. The vision to reach 20-somethings has not changed. How we reach them is what’s changing. I hope you are as excited about the future here at Willow Creek as I am—because you are a big part of it! In this together— Gene Appel Lead Pastor www.willowcreek.org

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Running 4th in the Nation... 20 weeks of....

For the 2nd year in a row Fellowshipchurch.com has ranked 4th in the 50 Most influential churches in the nation. This summer has and will be another hot summer line up, while Ed takes his yearly break during the summer months. Fathers Day weekend was a sucessfull Papa-Palooza for the family with thousands hanging out with the family on the campus. A couple of days ago the 4th of July was unfortunatley a wash with the weather and they had to move the events inside. The last two weeks have been a little bit quietier around the home front. I have been keeping track for many weeks, and I have had someone or people over at my house, hanging out with friends in the metro, or someone visiting me every single day of the week. Basically what I am trying to tell you, I have not been alone by myself after work or on the weekend for more than 25 weeks straight. I am sure glad God has been developing patience in me. David, my new little brother is/has been gone these last two weeks, the week before last in Delaware at Phi Beta Kappa convention, and this weekend he is on the summer family vacation. Listen to that silence.

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Here is to 4 good years

of celebrating life, in my honor and my friend Ryan Barnharts life. July 1, 2002 we realized that we both have something in common. God wanted us to both be alive and living well and strong, and for Ryan he found Christ also on this day. Life is special, you make it want you want, and it sure can get better with time.

I have been going through a little struggle in my life, I have been slowly finding out that 5 of my closest friends have lied to me in person on the phone, to and through people. I have been walking around in a daze, going to my hiding place, and asking God-why. I think the closest that has hurt me here in Texas, is my new little brother that I have been hanging tight with since this past march. I always want people to know that I am all about the friendships, relationships and bonding with the boys. I am a very open, honest, and try to be a real-Christ follower, the best that I know how. I guess what I don't understand is why do people have to lie about crap in their life?

The flip side of the coin is that even though I might not have been physically told a fact, my intuition is pretty damn good. I know I live in Dallas, (and hopefully sometime soon that will be changing) but why does life mess with people and time drifts the closest friendships away, when you have always vowed not to let them go, and is just understood that this should be not happening. My heart is hurting, and I don't even want these people to feel like they should tell me, but come on, I already know. So, I ask myself as I lay in bed, why am I left out in the rain, and how many months will it take for my heart to hear it, do I have to wait till Christmas?, if I do, I am not sure this friendship will last.

My friend brought it to my attention that the reason he has lied to me on 3 separate occasions is because he did not want to let me down, or disappointment me. If I had a dollar for every disappointment in my life, I would be ten times wealthier than I already am. I know he looks up to me as a older brother, and wise spiritual influence. "What have I NOT done for you to believe in me, trust me, or prove to you that I am always hear with a listening ear that will not judge you, (like all those other damn Christians out there that judge you before you even get introduced to them)", is what I asked him. He told me, "that I am one of the most intimidating people he has ever met", "are you kidding me, RIGHT?", I looked at him Saturday morning with confusion, and disbelief. So I ask my GM, "am I intimidating?, and she told me, "you are the 2nd most intimidating, next to my boyfriend. If I am, I sure as hell do not know it. I thanked David for bringing it to my attention, and told him, "we both have something to work on", and he said, You bet WE do. Bro, you want me to raise the bar, well Randall I want you to also." Life is always about raising the bar, and striving to reach the mark. I conclude with this...

If your to busy for your closest friends and family to just make a simple 2min call, text message, or email, then you need to stop wasting your pathetic attempt at life to realize you really need to stop and smell the roses and quit letting yourself exercise your excuse that your job is right now your only pathetic attempt to enjoy life. People don't let your friends and family that care about you the most, move on down the road. I guess I am finding out who my true friends really are, be careful it just might surprise you-unfortunately.

peace...

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Uptown Moves Downtown

Life has often been compared to a race, a roller coaster and a box of chocolates. But no one refers to life as a spectator sport. This weekend Ed Young showed us how we can discover an amazing life of purpose and power when we finally decide to move beyond the bleachers. It was the Grand Opening of the Downtown Dallas for a brand new satellite campus, and we had over 2,000 show up for this exciting event for FC and Town and Country Campaign. You can check out all the pictures and the exciting campus that will be reaching people for Christ in a whole new way. Stepping out of the bleachers, heck I am mowing the grass, watering, and seeding. Sometimes you just got to get a little dirty for God, and right now it's really muddy for me in my world. The New launch is still coming, so stay tuned...

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What to do when you hit rock bottom?

Since God has directed me to be a humanitarian, and my heart of compassion is always alive, I had to take a friend out to dinner for one last time. I want to introduce you to my friend Bennot, he is 22, no parents, no siblings, no grandparents, no car, no job, no apt, and of course no money, but the two good things he has is God and his 4 year old son. I get Bennett, I understand him and I certainly can relate to him a little. I am so happy that the Navy accepted him and he is leaving this Thursday June 22. You might ask, why no life, well he has hit rock bottom, and he is ok with that, his faith has spurred me on to keeping on going, life is ok, and other people might have it a little bit worse off than what you think is devasting to you, but in Bennott mind, your life is just a walk in the park. I hugged him goodbye after hanging out with him for 5 hours and I told him, God is starting over with you, and you need to start a new life with Him and begin to make one for you and your son, from here on out Bennott, everything you do is for your son." Good Luck bro, I wish all the success in the world and I hope God will bring our paths back together.

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Hang with the boys...

Well this is really getting exciting, however tonight's loss was a huge disappointment. I decided to show my love for some of the friends I have in my life. Afif, David and Donnie met at my house tonight at 5pm and we jumped into the car and headed downtown to a really nice steak house in the west end. Afif was really excited, so excited that he was leaning forward on his chair, and it gave way and he landed square on his ass, as the chair slid backwards a few feet. We all could not stop laughing so hard. We walked into the AAC for the "Mavs Watching party", they were really surprised and very appreciative of my kind gesture. We had great seats, but David talked us into going down closer to the floor for a better view. The last 5 minutes was so exciting that David was the first one to rip off his shirt, then Donnie, and a minute later Afif did as well, and they all were swing them in the air. I will save your fingers, hell no I did not even contemplate taking off my shirt, next year, my shirt will be coming off, along with my 50 pds that David has already helped me to lose.

Peace

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Can priest drink... The World Cup is On.

Well, growing up in a heavy catholic town of faith, I was always use to the men of the cloth not drinking, but I guess in today's culture, they can, they are, and boy can they "Get R Don". I have waited on a few of them. Most of the priest just walk up to the bar and look at me, and wait for me to ask them what they want for a drink, and usually I just say hello, and move on to another customer, and then they want to know when I am going to wait on them. Most of them are surprised to find out that the reason I don't ask them for a drink is because I tell them, "most people like you, I didn't think were allowed to drink", so I ask you, are they? I guess in Costa Rica, Brazil, and last but not least Mexico they are allowed.
One of my owners has played in a couple World Cup soccer games, and business has picked up and of course right now everybody is watching soccer for the us and "football" for the rest of the world.
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KK is getting older.

Big D and his best friend Aaron

This weekend my girl is celebrating her birthday and I was not sure where I was going to take the troops. It was 100' all weekend, and they just wanted to drink, and I knew I would be the DD. Karla and her friend Padma have never been down to Sundance Square in Downtown Ft.Worth. "You two have never been, Where are going there", I said. It was crazy and there was a jazz festival scheduled and of course no one told me when I was making the plans. We all got there around 11pm and each of the bars were packed so we ended up going to Bennigans, nothing new. We stayed there until 2am, and then went to a after hours party at a friends house.

Now if you want the gossip and all the juicy details of who puked 4 times, how many fights took place and who went wild, you will have to log on to my other web page, this is the "Christian one." I got home around 4 am and as I was walking into my apt. I kept on hearing these weird noises, ones that would never come from my apt. Next time, I want you to give me some sort of warning, like a sock on the door something, wow I didn't fall asleep until around 10am. You guessed it, not on this web page. Tonight is a very big game for the Dallas Mavs and I am hoping we can pull it off. So,if you are around the neighborhood, and have time, stop on by, you know we are watching the MAVS school the shack attack. U r going down, buddy. Peace

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Did you survive 6-6-06??? GOT Mavs Mania??? When you know!?

Tuesday down here in Texas, people were going nuts trying to avoid letting there newborns not be blessed by entering the world on this evil day?? People not going out on the streets, looking over there shoulders, and avoiding the crowds. Give me a break people, but I guess you just never know.
People are going crazy considering they have not had an NBA experience like this in 25 years. I will be having my first ever NBA Mavs party at my apartment and the troops will be here, I hope they will bring the beer.
Probably for the last two months or so, I have been home sick. When you know something is going on back at home, but you are stuck here in Texas, and you are just out of the loop it gets very frustrating. I am not dumb, and I certainly have been around the block a few times over and over again. I love my friends so much, and soon I will have one more friend, in which right now, my stomach and soul is so excited, that it is literally killing me inside. I want so much to hug, kiss, and wrap my arms around my friends, but for right now, I can only sit back and laugh at the situation, because I know.
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Busted Chicago wide open....

We arrived in Chi-town around 9am on Thursday June 1st. Jumped on the "EL" towards downtown Chicago, from right off the bat we were relieved that people would be so gracious to help us out, since they definitely could tell we were not from there. The hotel that we booked was the downtown Hilton Hotel and Towers, we had a lake Michigan view on a high floor, and we got a sweet deal. We got off on the wrong stop 10 blocks from the hotel, and caught a bus to atleast find the hotel, we stored our bags with the bell man and hit the streets running. Within 5 hours under the cloudy dismal, spitting lite drizzled day we took a nap from 5pm-7. My buddy Afif woke me up asking me what was wrong with my face? I jumped into the bathroom to realize that I look like a damn lobster. Burnt to a crisp, and of course had to make our way 7 blocks south to the closest Jewel-Osco for some sunscreen. We found this awesome pizza-Italian pub just two blocks from millennium park with $5 u call it martinis. We had a few too many, and then made our way to the bar to watch the mavs school the suns, a few more drinks, shots, and then it was time to meet my grade school best friend Randy Inserra. Afif decided to take a nap, and then meet up with us around 11pm. We finally made it to Rush street, got kicked out of 3 bars, in one fight, watched Afif puke on a cop car right in front of Wrigley Field and stopped him in mid stream of kissing a few random people that he did not know. Missed going to jail for PI's with a sweet talker in letting us go home. Then we jumped into a taxi cab that was a"HBO-Taxi Cab confessions car", that I signed the release form at the end to seal the deal, only because Afif ran his mouth the whole time, to this day, he still thinks so. ha
Friday morning we slept in till noon and went and hit the downtown riverfront and all around, we found this awesome little Italian bistro, and then meet up with my two sisters, and nieces around 3pm. We went shopping, on a riverboat tour, lots of good laughs and enjoyed a nice relaxing late dinner at the Chicago House of Blues, and then they headed back to Kenosha. My buddy's client flew up in his private jet, and rented some Dodge Vipers that were tooled around the city in. Awesome.
Saturday morning I scheduled a breakfast talk-counseling session with one of my old prof's from GU. I had a great two hour in depth talk with Dr. C and really was able to get a lot of advice from him. Thank your Dr. C. During lunch we cruised up to Kenosha to my sisters house for her daughters family & friend BBQ from noon-4pm. After we all had a quick nap, we settled in for the night to watch the mavs final winning game, then off to the Wine Knot for an awesome glass of wine that turned out to be very relaxing.
Sunday, we awoke up and headed to Willow Creek for church and then to go see my niece graduate from high school, and whizzed on back to Midway airport to fly home by 9pm.

All in all, it was a great vacation and we will be doing it again very soon at the end of summer, however destination will be top secret, since this web page is read all over the world. You will soon find out why. Peace randall
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Chi-town or bust

This past weekend has flown by, and I made the decision to not go to church, ya I know I am a sinner. Memorial day weekend is always parent/child dedication and I just did not want to sit through 500 screaming babies in church. Sorry. However I did hangout with my new little brother David and we all watched the Mavs keep on scoring to a victory.
I am definitely ready to go to the windy city for our first ever "millionaire weekend". We have four going and we will be living like rock stars. Believe it. My best friend from Texas and I are leaving tomorrow at 7am. I will let you know all the juicy details. I promise.
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Summer is here...A brand new project on the horizon?

can you feel it, if you are in Texas you sure can. I have been busy with some old friends, my regular friends, and making new ones. I just don't understand why the new ones are still alot younger than me. I have been hanging out with a bartender friend of mine and his best friend which is the owners nephew. He just graduated from high school, a little late, but still graduated and also in college. This kid is an awesome person who still lives at home, and the mom is literally sucking the life out of him. Both parents are glad that David and Donnie are hanging with me and encourage it. They have been over around 9 times watching the Dallas Mavs with Afif and I. Recently, I asked them what they expect out of this relationship and they both said at different conversations, " we love hanging out with you, cause your a lot fun, a very wise person, a positive person who always encourages us, a very good friend, and we both look at you as an older brother that we never have had. " I was very flattered and also humbled. I have hung out with David a lot more than Donnie, because of schedule conflicts. I hung out with David all day Monday, Thursday, Friday. We had a great talk over sno-cones, dinner, volleyball, and then the mavs game. They both are Christians, however Donnie is a new Christian, and has not yet been brought up in the Christian faith, that will be our summer project for David and I. They are going to both start coming to Fellowship with me, and you know I love that. They will be staying at my apartment while I am in Chicago for 4 days this upcoming weekend.

I have been working on a new project that will get rolled out 4th of July weekend, and trust me it is going to be a hot summer sizzler. To kick off my new project, I have hired, and asked a friend of mine of who is a Christian rapper to spin little track for me. MORE TO COME July 4th.

IS IT GETTIN HOT IN HERE? YOU WILL SOON FIND OUT!!!

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Meet my friend....

Everyone-from knee high to tree high-is an author. In fact, whether you realize it or not, you are in the process of writing a best-seller. But for your story to take on the character and potential God has in mind, you have to move beyond the first page. We learned how to turn past that first page. And when we do that, we can transform an average story into the story of our lives. So, with that I want to introduce you to one of my friends Janay MacDonald, that I know personally from FC, and you can gain perspective on how her story was unwrapped, and how we all can get our own stories out, one person at a time. That is what life is about, sharing your story, learning and growing from it, all the while gaining knowledge to apply it to your own life. GO MAVS

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Want to see me on t.v.???? FC-Uptown UPDATE...DaVinci Code is a dud...

**** I am sharing some cool info. NOT BOOSTING MY EGO, a couple of my friends said I should.**** The last couple months Ed was inspired by his favorite music group to be a little more edgy in church, and so he created the first ever Christian mosh pit in a church, and it was a huge success. Everybody was and still is talking about one of the fastest growing churches in the nation. So I ask you, have you yet checked out the past sets, stage designs that we are known for??? Want to see me on national television and in the pit, then you better tune into Ed Young t.v. to see me in the first ever Christian mosh pit in a church. Trying to not keep God in a box, we don't even attempt to go there. Creative, Innovative, Compelling, and cutting edge is the best way to explain our explosive growth. Mark your calendars, a brand new campus is opening up in the downtown-uptown Dallas area on June 25 and you can check out the construction process right here. The word is getting out. Dan Brown and Tom hanks have done a injustice to Christians and evangelical alike all over the world, it will spur on conversation-yes, but the outcome will be taking us a few steps back.

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Do you know what everybody is talking about??

It's about Jesus, and all you have to do is just open up an ear to hear all the chatter. Mary Hart is in London for the world premier, every radio station is pushing it. Alot of mega churches are catering their next few weekends services about it. You want to know what, Fellowship is not mentioned a thing about it. Ed, has expressed concern about engaging in conversation about it, or his thoughts are" don't even bother reading the book, you will be waisting your time." I want to know what all the hum is about, because I just dont get it. Here are a few churches discussing this hot topic...Willow Creek Community church Saddleback Church Point of Grace Church

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Shania Twain @ FC...Time to let go...

Well, I must say that my church never ceases to amaze me. Lisa Whelchel-aka-"Blair", from the Facts of Life made another Mother's Day guest appearance to encourage mothers. She also kicked off the building campaign of the first weekend to give your best gift-first-this weekend. She is incredible author, speaker, teacher, actor and mother of 3. She does a lot of traveling and speaking engagements. She recently came down to hear the casting vision for "Town and Country" about a month ago, since she is still an active member of FC. This weekend a all girl group sang for all the moms a Shania Twain song, "This one is for the girls. Well onto other news, I have been successful in helping a friend "which we all know", find a pyschatrist, I just couldn't do it any longer. I sure am hoping that he will stick with it to the very end. I love this friend of mine, but we both know that he has a chemical imbalance in his head, that he just can't let go of. We are still very close friends, and he is still going on vacation with me and my best friend from grade school, Randy Inserra at the end of the month. I have been doing a lot of soul searching, and my heart breakes about letting go of things that I just love to hold on to. I have a couple of friends that I just wonder why we are friends. We use to be really close, but have slowly drifted away, I think that is one little thing I just don't like about Christianity. You have to completely put your whole faith and beliefs in a God that you can't see, but yet you trust Him enough to get you threw each day. When He says it is time to move on, you better do it, and make it that much easier later on down the road.

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