State of my life in 2006 address.

Yes, the presidents speech was kind of funny, but somewhat unrealistic. I however will me giving my own speech, and it goes something like this. This year the word I am going to be really trying to instill in my life, my families and my friends will be-RESPECT.

Main Entry: 1re·spect Pronunciation: ri-'spektFunction: nounEtymology: Middle English, from Latin respectus, literally, act of looking back, from respicere to look back, regard, from re- + specere to look -- more at SPY1 : a relation or reference to a particular thing or situation 2 : an act of giving particular attention : CONSIDERATION3 a : high or special regard : ESTEEM b : the quality or state of being esteemed c plural : expressions of respect or deference 4 : PARTICULAR, DETAIL - in respect of chiefly British : with respect to : CONCERNING- in respect to : with respect to : CONCERNING- with respect to : with reference to : in relation to

Why is it so hard for people to not respect people's wishes, why do people continue to push other people's buttons. They push, test your patience and don't give a crap about your opinion. I this year will be trying to lead by example and respect you and myself. This is going to be my year. I am not messing around any longer. If I lose everything, than I will just have to rely on God, because right now, that is all I have. The so called friends that I thought I had are gone, my life is empty, I choose not to go out, but to remain inward. My depression has left me numb to this earth. God is slowly showing me that He is all I need. Any other extra bonuses, or asset's is a gift, and for right now, I am ok with that. Friends have left me high and dry. Omaha friends that I thought would come and visit, have not. Ones I am waiting for, I will not continue to hold my breath. Im starting 2006 with a clean slate to my life. I am not begging for anybody's friendship. I don't expect contact to continue however I wish it would, but at least the thought that I am still alive, and somewhat healthy is still ok. I will be waiting with open arms to my friends to acknowledge that is what we are. Otherwise my life will continue somewhat saddened that I can not give into a relationship any longer, I have finally realized that the most important relationship I have over looked for many years, and the one I cant wait to daily meet is with my creator- the one true relationship that will last, make me happy, continue to restore my faith, and promise me hope.
No, I am not upset with anybody, asking for cards, emails, flowers, or any pity party, Im just going on with my life, now more aware that a sleepy giant has been finally awoke, and breathing a great sigh of relief that will only benefit me and the people who choose to be around me. That sleepy giant has been me.

Good News for the DALKE'S

Just wanted to share the good news, that I have been passed on. Prayers still need to be flowing in the Dalke direction!!!

Hello Friends,
I wanted to keep you updated with the happenings of Kevin & Jen. First of all, I can't remember my last note to you so some of this might be a repeat... Secondly, thank you for your prayers these last few months have been tough for all of us but the Dalke's are doing great. So many people have been so generous and helpful. The town of Lewis held a fund-raiser supper and many people from the community came out for that. It's was wonderful to see all the support from friends and strangers. Many people have given to their relief fund set up at the local bank. And many, many car loads of donations have been appreciated.
They moved into a big ranch style house December 1st. The insurance will pay rent for up to a year. The house belongs to friends from church. It's been a nice vacation for the Kev & Jen not to spend every free moment working on the house. The girls are doing great. They still have some fears but that is so normal. Everyday in December was like Christmas in their house with all the gifts. The girls were definitely spoiled. Things have settled down in January. They want to find some normality in this chaotic time.
They have settled with the insurance over the house and now are working on itemizing their belongings... which will take them awhile. They have purchased a house and have contracted it to move it to their land. This house is another "fix it up"er but they are trying to be smarter and wiser the second time around. I haven't seen the new house yet. Hopefully, this weekend as Dalia (their youngest) turns 5. She is hoping for a kitten... not for sure if it will happen.
Thanks for all you have done to help them... to see them taken care of has done by heart good.
Love you all, Di

Not about me, but you...

The week has come and gone, and boy am I tired. In a nut shell, it goes something like this. Worked Mon, Tues, at FC the past two nights. Helped out at C3 all day and night Wed. & Thur morning. A couch repair man fixed my couches at noon, Karla took me out to lunch at 1pm, jumped in the car for an 7 hour drive to Branson, arrived at my friend JJ's place at 10:15pm, talked with him & the roomies till 1am, all of us up at 7:30. They left to go to college, and I drove another 30 minutes to my dads, and have been on the run all day long.

The C3 was very good, Ed was incredible and the opener of the conference was another show-stopper"Lets Get it Started" by the Black Eyed Peas crazy performance.

It has been a long road, and very hilly, bumpy, and windy way to realize it can't be about me anymore, but you. A great best friend has been trying to get me to understand that when God wants you to focus on Him, He will strip all other idiols, and friendships away. I have been long awaiting the day where I have finally understood that the only true relationship/friendship is with our creator.

The question that I have been asking myself for awhile is from this most recent series, pronouns. "What would you have not done, if they had not influenced you to do, if they had not been around?"(short form) Everybody has friends that influence you, some good, some bad, and some you just don't understand. God has brought me out of my comfort zone from Omaha, through Vegas, to Dallas to throw me on my back, so the angle I can visualize is only towards Him. Dad has been going through the exact same journey with God and me trying to show him that him and his wife need to be at James River Assmbly. They have been thrown around like little rag dolls, until God said, "this is where you belong, not here, not doing this, not involved with these people, but HERE." Is it not really ironic that we both realized our need to believe in the one who knows best, all with in the last 2 months.
Strange, no I dont think so, God-yea I think so.

Maybe Moving???

Debating on a change is always a long, exhaustive, process that always ways on your mind. This one however I might have to do, and my say in the matter more than likely will not count. How is it far to be voted the only person in the mix, that really has no reason to move, but forced because the only likely choice is you?. Trying to figure it if life is fair right now doesn't seem logical, but wondering if I want to start over in a town, that I have already been in might be a unfair answer on me. I moved to DFW for one reason, and that reason is a great opportunity to be involved in a church that is young, vibrant, and souls are going places. I live each day to be involved at FC, and when the weekend comes, I cant wait to see what God has in store for me with one of the best hours of my week. This week is our "Creative Church Conference"- C3 and I will be at the church Monday night, Tuesday night, all day Wednesday, and Thursday, and then off on a little short vacation to Branson to discuss my future with my father. Well, this weekend was a light show worship extravaganza like I have not seen in a long time at FC. The pronouns this weekend were They, you, and we.

What is America coming to???

Thursday, January 19 will always be a cold, chilling reminder of how cruel and insensitive some beings could be that would call themselves human. A lady walked into the women's bathroom next to my old store in the DFW INTL. Airport-terminal C-30. Preparing to use one of the many bathroom stalls, this poor lady discovered a tiny human leg sticking out of the bottom of the toilet bowl. After, 4 days of the whole restroom being closed, many interviewed by the FBI, and a dismantle of the toilet, the suspicions were confirmed. What would posse a women that had a 5 month miscarriage, literally in the toilet, and try to flush a human life down the toilet. What in the hell is going on with America? You have to be kidding me, that this random act of senseless action that this women did, would allow herself to get on a flight and leave DFW airport with part of her missing, and continue on with her life? God have mercy on that women's soul. Please Lord have mercy on that womens soul....

Just need to talk??

We have been going through a really tough time at work with the owners of the restaurant. They want to do and be everything including the owners. It really gets old, considering all they do is bitch and moan, and never thank you for anything at any time. I decided to have a little chat with my two managers at separate occasions. Here is what I found out, they talked, talked, and talked some more. My GM thanked me and said you now what, no one has ever asked me how I am doing, listened, did not interrupt or have a hidden agenda. Not my kids, not my first husband, and certainly not my current boyfriend, thank you randall, you really do care. So then, I thought I would try and reverse the same thing that I just did. I called up my best friend who I trust with any amount of info that I spout to him. After a hour and half, he asked me if I wanted his opinion, shared, cried, told me he loved me, and said, "Randall, keep reaching for the one true relationship that will only satisfy people-randall it is the current one you have with Jesus, everybody else-including me let go of.

Trying to let go, and just hang on to the one who continues to give me breath daily,

Randall

Coldplay visits FC

This weekend was really good at church. Ed spoke on the "Pronoun-They", and how you should examine the "theys" in your life. For the good, bad, and why you allow people to influence you in the way you do, and how God can replace the "bad they's" with good ones. The last song of the service was by a very popular group, Coldplay and the song was entitled "Fix You".

Time for me?? Sit in the pit for church??

As God keeps allowing me to wake each morning, I am more drawn to the fact that it is truly a blessing. Being able to live my life, where I do, how I do it, and with the gift of life to keeping sharing it along this journey. I am slowly realizing that you have to take time for you, and continue to take time for God. This week has been a crazy time at work, I have had some real freaks come into my store. I cant wait for this weekend for the playoffs, the football games should be awesome. After a little bit of break from hanging so tight with my friends, I am hoping we will be able to hang this weekend. Last weekend after church, I spent 4 fun filled hours at Ikea, and I am just waiting for tax time, and I will be able to finish decorating my apartment like I want. FC's stage design team again went out of there way for this series. We have a "sit in the pit" section, like you see on the MTV music awards, Vh1 Awards, and the Oscars. Pictures will be coming soon.

Behind the Curtain..Family news..My friends new 2006 web page...C3 time?

I just wanted to take this time to welcome you to my best friends amazing web page. Check out his nonprofits, or view his complete profile, and a paragraph on his really cool church. love ya miss hammer head These last few days have been amazing, like 75' amazing. Today is my day off, and I am doing the usual. I have begun the process of looking for 2 more new jobs, and it really does suck. I have to wait at least till Feb 1st, and then my girl will hire me on at On the Border, she just needs to know what store she will be sent to. Fellowship church is gearing up for the annual Creative Church Conference, (aka C3). I have and will be volunteering for the 3rd straight year in a row, it is for me a great opportunity to really see the nuts and bolts of how this great church body works. This year, I am also excited because they have changed things up a little with all new speakers, schedule of days and lots more. Looking forward to hearing Bill Hybels from Willow Creek and TD Jakes from the Potters house. 444Fellowshipchurch.com Exclusive-worship team member Matt Murph discusses a typical Saturday right before show time. check it out here. Since the beginning of the year started, I have been really taking a lot of time for myself, I worked 3 jobs for a whole year, with a couple breaks in between, and it was rough, but I am ready to do it again. ****Family news, Dad is no longer in full retirement mood. He is a financial advisor, backer and part owner of a couple of furniture stores in Branson Missouri. If you are ever in the branson area, you can check them out. Also, if you are stuck in your hotel room and you find yourself watching "Branson Tv" you can see the whole WFO-Fine Furniture outlet gang on TV. The little catchy jingle is my dad's wife singing, and yes you can see my father in the commercial. My sister Victoria my sister in MPLS, bless her heart had a little run in with Skippy, moms, and then my old car, she hit ice, and then comes the pole in the lot, she's is ok, but the car is a little hurt. Debra, Rob, and girls are still in Kenosha and doing good, Rob is in Italy for two weeks. Jim and Becky have moved to Iowa, so if you are reading this. CALL YOUR BROTHER. **** That is all for now, have a great start to the year. Peace, faith, hope, and love Randall

Fellowship Christmas Pictures....New arrivals... a friend needs prayer...

Fellowship Church held 21 Christmas services, and 11 of them at the main Grapevine campus. Here are our some great pictures. Check them out here. I forget to mention one thing, (notice this was the first one out on the market), a brand new 2006 plasma HD Liquid Jumbotron screen. That is what I was passed on. Thousands of souls made life changing decisions for Christ for the very first time. This was the most low key, down to earth Christmas service that I have attended since I have been here. This was pretty much a regular weekend worship service, except for the flying angels and wise men, otherwise those pictures you see, that is a normal FC weekend worship service. Scroll down and check out more pics over the last few years.

I would like to take this time to welcome new arrivals for Steve & Heidi VanVoorst, and Joseph and Jen Carlson on their new little bundles of joy. Bring on the extra diapers. Have fun!!!!

Well, a bunch of my friends from my graduating class got together this past week for a little lunch time gossip session. It was brought to my attention that one of my class mates Kerri Jacobsen is not doing good with her health and she needs lots of prayer along with her family. I personally know what she is going through only because my mom had lots of the same problems, and it really does suck. My heart aches, and my prayers go out to you Kerri. Next time I am in town, we all will have to go out for lunch.

This weekend was the first installment of the new series in which Ed brings definition to something that many of us rarely consider-pronouns. This week remember that countless numbers of circumstances, situations and people are vying for our attention and interest. But there is only one voice of truth. taken from FC-worship guide

Two New Orleans Couples...State wide burn ban...Pro-noun series

I just want to give a shout out to the 2 New Orleans couples that stopped by the Blue Mesa and are now basking in the warm Mexico sun. These people were an awesome group to wait on, and definitely are having a great time. Oh yea they also have kids in high school and love to go to Amsterdam and admit it. Here is your props, and also good luck to the Dr. I hope you get your practice back soon, since the hurricane wiped you out. Texas and Oklahoma are in State wide burn bans. If anybody needs to be doing some rain dances, start dancing. This weekend will be the first series of the new year, Ed Young will examine how even the smallest parts of speech can impact the biggest areas of our lives. See you this weekend at FC.

Texas Celebrates...While Dallas hesitates???

HOOK'EM HORNS!!! CONGRATS TO UT-AUSTIN LONGHORNS for a hard fight, and an awesome win over USC. The place went crazy, people standing on tables, chairs, high-fiving everybody. BW's along with the whole state of Texas went nuts at the end of the game. It is official, Dallas is now on the map and a little scared, but they are ready. Dallas Swat premiered this evening on AE TV. It was very cool, and awesome to see the action so close to home. *****Happy early Birthday to Randall Czech which is leaving for Germany for two fun filled weeks. His birthday is actually Jan 8*****

No more bull... Helping out a friend...

Good evening to all of my friends and family. I hope you had a great start of the new year. Mine has been yet eventful. I have decided that 2006 is going to be my year, to shed some pounds, maybe some friends, and most importantly some stress. I have already begun that process. I have quit two of my jobs, and I am down to just one, which is still at DFW INTL TERMINAL D-31. I have decided that if things are not going the way, I see, then maybe God will have to lead me some other direction. This year I am not putting up with any bull****, if anybody wants to, get ready, cause I will be throwing it right back. So as you view my online calendar of activities, and you don't see my work schedule up, or it has changed in the last 24 hours, it's because it has. My heart was pierced by God poking at it, saying you really need to help out some friends. So I did, you know who you are, and I hope you get my package soon. Love you both. randall

Congrats Huskers... 2005-out/in 2006...FC best 5..CLR-where?

Welcome to a new year, and my new site. I have taken a break, and boy have I needed one. I have spent a lot of time reflecting, thinking, hanging with the parents, and preparing my mind and soul for 2006. This new years eve, was pretty low key, I had to work at My Martini till 11pm, and I then waited for Afif, Nick and Jen to come over and we hung till the wee hours of the morning. Oh yea, I woke up with no hangover, also!!!. Kicking the year off right.

Congrats Nebraska Huskers on the big Alamo Bowl Win!!

I want to wish one of my best friends for a very long time a very Happy Birthday to Cheryl Reineke, who I love to death, and can't believe your that old. Have a great day!!!

The parents came down on Monday to Thursday, and we had a fun time, hanging out and getting to know each other better. Fellowship Church did the best 5 messages of 2005 in grand fashion. This church just rocks.

***This post is dedicated to Cheryl and TRISH the dish FERRYMAN- you did a good job raising me, and I am glad we are family. Love you, miss you, and thanks for the emails. Hugs & kisses