"And it goes something like this..."

I have had alot of people asking me for a while what I think on some issues in the news. I have been wanting to start this new little segment I will title as, "And it goes something like this..."

Oh where, oh where do I begin. I am very interested in our new president. So far the race has been very interesting of how some of them have skirted around certain issues. Now, that the Clinton biaatch is gone, im definetly turning to being a democrat. I know shocking as it is, that is what it is. Im really rooting for Obama!

Well I think that California is going to be the new hotspot for new couples. I am shocked that the new ruling got overturned. Gay marriage hum, for me I don't think marriage is remotely close to stepping into my back yard. Im glad America is finally waking up to the fact there are people out there that just want the same rights as everybody else. As a good friend once told me "We love everybody!" from jenny&matthew smith.

This last month we have had over 100 shooting, just on one 48 hour weekend we had over 27 shootings. What the hell is going on with people, it is really crazy and getting out of hand. Im very careful and am always aware of my surroundings, but you never know when you are going to have to "hit the deck."

Do You HAVE ONE MONTH 2 LIVE?

This past month at WillowCreekCommunityChurch.org has been one of the best church moment experiences in my life. One of my all time favorite mega-churchs, in north Houston is FellowshipoftheWoodlands.org. Senior pastor of Fotw, Kerry Shook was the guest speaker this past weekend at the Creek. Kerry & Chris wrote this book ONE MONTH TO LIVE...30 DAYS TO A NO-REGRETS LIFE. It was a very intense weekend service that got you thinking...that is forsure.

The message was a good challenge to look at your life and start living it like it was your last month to live. What would you change and how would you look at your fellow family and friends around you, to let them know how they have changed your life.

The Best birthday ever...

just not to thrilled about turning 35. Thursday May 1st at 2pm I picked up my best friend Matthew Smith at Midway Airport, and headed back to my place to dump off his stuff. We had a quick couple of killer margaritas at Caesars in boys town. We had a really good deep talk while waiting for our other good friend Geoffrey Carlson. Checked out his new place a nice dinner and the rest is history. It was probably one of the biggest weekends, Tom, Kate, & baby Surri were in town taping with Oprah, the Kentucky derby & Cinco De Mayo was on this exact same weekend. I enjoyed tons of singing phone calls, emails, presents from my Starbucks gang and of course everybody else closest to me. Last but not least, Ellen DeGeneres was in town taping her first ever in the Windy City. Getting to see her up close was a dream come true.
At the Willow Creek, this past weekend I had a real God moment where He confirmed to me that I was in the right city and place in time in my life. The president of the WillowCreekAssociation.com was the guest speaker and he told us of his miraculous past summer vacation where him and his son were almost killed in Ba ha California. The miracle when they got "RESCUED" was the theme of the weekend service. God has definitely confirmed to me in that service that, He RESCUED me and brought to a much better time in my life, now living in Chicago, which I really love.

Too close 4 comfort with the Family.

Where do I begin, I love Chicago, and my life here is just about as happy as I could wish for. Spring is definetly here, the tulips are in bloom, my 35th birthday is around the corner and well I just about came too close to death this past weekend, that is a little freaky.

Starbucks is going really good, my district manager of the loop had lunch with my store manager and I. It was a unofficial interview and "let me know why you are here in Chicago, working for Starbucks and where do you see yourself in 5 years". One thing is forsure I wont be living here in the U.S. that is forsure.
We celebrated with 5 other people, David Kellys little brother getting his ankle braclet off and so we went to my first Chicago Cubs game. We started partying at 10am on Friday April 17th. We started tailgating around noon outside of Wrigley Field and then ended at my place.

Willow Creek Community Church is probaly one of my best choices in getting involved with a mega church. I'm really enjoying the realness I am getting to know with my senior pastor Bill Hybels. This past week of Wednesday thru Friday my dad and sisters came to celebrate my birthday. Dad and I went to new community at the Creek, we both enjoyed it very much. We took a river boat cruise as a present for dads birthday which was April 23, and my sisters and I all stayed together at my place for the first time.
My best friend Matthew Smith gets in Thursday May 1st and leaves Saturday night, we will be going to the 2nd annual Looptopia. The next weekend after that my girl Sammy will be getting in for the weekend.
This past weekend we had a couple close calls, my sisters and I escaped the Chinatown/Cermak trainstation that a semi crashed into Friday afternoon at 520pm. Saturday morning this lady and I were getting ready to cross the street, I waited, she didnt and she got splatted by a city truck. A little too close for comfort.

Holy Week, Good Friday and Easter

I am really trying to change my life and let you see the change, other than hear it. I finished observing for lent, and decided to give up what I gave up for lent. Katrina and I went to see the dying of the river and the St. Patricks Day parade. The day was great. Now it is time to celebrate how life became abundant to us sinners. I love easter, and I love the fact Im going to see my 1 Christmas & Easter services. It snowed all day on Friday and my sister in Kenosha got a foot of snow, so she couldnt ride the train down to visit me to day. Im going to the 9am Easter service and cant wait. I have massage appt at 2pm and then dinner with Katrina at a free buffet. YEA

"Ross", Not a Tranny?,Spring where r U?...

I cant get over how time changes your life. I had 5 great years in Texas, but where did it go, it really flew by, that is for sure. I have been in Chicago already almost 6 months this April 3. I remember back when I was a little kid coming to the "Big City that never sleeps son-CHICAGO-THE WINDY CITY" is what my dad always said. My heart still skips a beat thinking about that, cause I'm doing it, my dream has come true.
I have this picture I got from my Chicago & Omaha best friend Geoffrey C. Believe & Succeed- Courage Does Not Always Roar. SOMETIMES, It IS The Quiet Voice At The End Of The Day Saying, "I Will Try Again Tomorrow." I have been really focusing on that these last couple of weeks, hard weeks.

Let me tell you about my area. One place I go to is Hamburger Marys. A cute little diner with all kind of peeps you can imagine. The favorite server by far is this transsexual and she is so funny, there 2 different tables of lesbians, 3 tables of gay guys, a family with 2 dads and there 2 boys and one straight family and younger couple. Your probably asking yourself why I told you all that, I love this city, it is so laid back, caring, compassionate, accepting, keep to themselves. But on the other hand, the city is still conservative, judgemental, rude, and private. The best decision I have made so far.

I wanted to wait, but 2 weeks ago, I met Ross from FRIENDS, yes David Schimmer was in front of me at a Starbucks on Rush street. He rocks, then that afternoon, I met Jerry Springer, way chill kind of guy. On Monday the next week I met Stedman Graham the boy friend of OPRAH WINFREY!!!
I have met my new roommate and we are moving into our new place this September a lil bit closer to the Loop/Downtown Chicago. We are living in a great gay community that is 3X3 mile radius of the 2nd largest gay community in the nation. We just want to be closer to all the action and that is downtown Chi-town.
One thing that really disturbed me was the other day this lady was getting out of the bus and started calling our bus driver a racist f*%$ing asshole. The middl eastern driver was dumbfounded. You could tell he had no clue what happened, but I had to eventually kick her out of the bus. She had a few screws loose upstairs. My parents always brought me up to build someone up higher than when you met them. So I was walking off the bus, and " I told him not to worry about that lady, she was mental bro, your an awesome person, and have a great day."
I am trying to really do a good deed for people at least on time a week. Enjoy the beginning of spring!!

Happy Super Fat Tuesday...

Well how could we be so lucky, fat tuesday and super tuesday falling on the same day, ironic isn't it?? Ya know, I have been talking to my friends and family more and they all say with a resounding "hell ya", that I am doing much better here in Chicago. I am so much more happier, calmer, more relaxed and free to be just me. I am not living for my dad anylonger. I am living for me RANDY PAUL THOMPSON from now on, if anybody still doesn't like it, or may not agree with it, you know where you can stick it.

NO particular order...Here are few things in my life I love here in chicago..
seeing my God in a whole new light, that I didn't think would be possible.
long walks on the beach and boadwalk with my dogs.
being able to enjoy all 4 seasons.
being alone in the stillness and serenity on my rooftop deck staring into Lake Michigan.
having 5 good gay neighbors that are now friends of mine. ( we watch each others dogs!)
a unique and political stance without being judged.
having 2 workout partners. YES!
no longer owning a car, as to not keep poluting the envirnoment, (much cheaper, also).
a great church that is committed into building relationships with in the community!
closer to friends and my famuly.

My life is definetly changing much for the better dogs, snake, friends, church and my insanity level as dropped now to more of a sane, calm, and stable person in this wonderful community.

I have been trucking along in life and trying to take in all that I can with what God has blessed me with. Started a new bible study with a new friend from Wichita Kansas, that has about the same exact background. Great guy, my store manager at Starbucks is a beliver, so I always have her on my side. Last but not least, GO VOTE PEOPLE. Change is in the air!

You want 2 look back at 2007...

Not me, but what the hell, lets go for it. 2007 for me was a good year for growth, but boy was it painful. Luckily I had a good doctor that got me on some depression medication that changed my life for the better. I was in a relationship with a younger christian friend that ultimately helped put me into a psych ward in Jan. I knew and so did all of our friends what was really going on. Now in the back of my mind, we were just friends, but it sure didn't look that way. Alot of lies, deception, manipulation and a cold heart that Satan had a hold of, is the only way that I could even begin to describe my end to this friendship that started good with David Thompson, but ended horribly.
Basically, I had to cut ties with him, and he was the one to do it, hard-yes. I look back and when I thought he was going to visit me in the psych ward, and I get out early, only to find him in MY BED with his girlfriend, that was the final straw. It was the best decision I could of ever made considering you can't really blame him, considering his parents are completely to blame for what kind of fake "supposed Christian family" they claim to be as they had no disregard as to me letting them and the world know what kind of son, they ended up with-FAKE. I only pray for this family and hope I would never ever cross paths with them considering how heartless they really are. Don't continue to help people that really don't want to be helped or to help themselves. YOUR WAISTING YOUR TIME.

Second worst decision of my life for 2007-continuing to work at a place that was started as a disaster, that kept on spiraling downward. I moved to Chicago with a new fresh start on Oct 3, 2007-the best decision I made. I still remember one of my Texas moms words of advice, Randall go start your life over, God is giving you a new fresh start. I only ever plan on staying in a place for around 5 years, and I did cut it short by 7 months, but when God opens the door. YOU better run through it.

I miss Fellowshipchurch.com, brad davies, TGIFriday crew, johnny, a few peeps at Blue Mesa, debbie provence, mike the morman, Szami, mark, and of course my best friend the whole time I was in Texas - derrick wuistinger. It was hard to leave and I still shed a few tears once in a while, but all in all, 2 many fake ass people in Texas, that supposedly care, not about you, but what they can get out of you.

Not by my choice or knowledge of it, but I am living in one of the largest gay communities in the U.S in Chicago, it is a 3x3 mile radius that needs Jesus, who doesn't right? Your probably asking yourself as to why Chicago? One of my best friends from Omaha is here Geoffrey Carlson and his man, and my sisters are closer to me now, Kenosha and Minneapolis. Of course I always need and want more God in my life, http://www.willowcreekcommunitychurch.com/ is now my new home church. IN 2007, it was ranked the #1 Most Influential Church in America-enough said.

Now, don't ya'll jump to conclusions, even though I really don't care what anyone thinks of me anymore. So with that being said, I love it here, for most people being gay in Chicago is really no big deal. People don't come out of the closet here, because that is so 90's ago, but just being you, is one of the best things that I could of ever ran into here. I am loved, accepted, not judged, and not scared to speak my mind, or be the man of God I know He wants me to be. I hate labels and my new "Chicago best friend" Gio, is one of the most amazing human beings I could ask for in a friend. He is so encouraging to me, to just be honest, open, and screw what ever anybody else thinks, he continually reminds me to only be concerned with my most favorite relationship I have-with GOD. He at times has given me the shirt off his back, literally, he daily makes me aware that I am loved even if at times I only feel it by GOD.

So you are probably asking yourself by now, what is up? I have no answer for you, if you want to put a label on me, put me in a box, stereotype me into a lower class than what ever you call normal, well sorry, but screw OFF. I certainly don't need your friendship and I am glad that I am finally getting to know the real me, I would hope you would continue on with me in my journey as I am finding that life is definitely worth living to the fullest here in Chicago-the north side.

It's getting cold. Ready for the Red Carpet?

Surprisingly enough we have only had 1 lite snow here in Chicago. My time here has been pretty good. I have made some new friends and already had to let go of some bad ones. I refuse to hang out with fake ass people who lie, cheat, and manipulate.

My time at Willow Creek has been awesome, nothing like Fellowshipchurch.com but pretty darn close. Just as I'm getting settled into the Creek, Mike Breaux announced he is transitioning into the sister church Willow planted a year ago in Rockford ILL. He will be missed. Thanksgiving was spent with the my sister Debra and her family. It was our first ever Thanksgiving. Victoria will join us in Kenosha for Christmas. Harley my dog loved her first ever snow storm. She loved rolling around in the snow. David Kelly is a really good friend who we are now meeting on a weekly basis for lunch on Wednesday.

Lets roll out the red carpet, bring on the DJ's, and of course get ready for the flash bulbs. The newest and hottest gay club will have their "hard opening" Friday December 7. This VIP event will be an event you don't want to miss in the gay district called "Boystown. You don't want to miss this event, so come out an support one of my best friends Geoffrey Carlson as he has been promoted to the Bar manager of this new venture. The place to be is Scarlet, see you there. Yes, I will be there, I'm V I P, biiootchh.
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Getting settled into Chicago, baby!

Getting settled into CHICAGO, baby!

Well it's official, I LOVE CHICAGO. It is awesome, people are great and I'm out of the dirty south and glad to be back in the Midwest. It took 3 days to move and travel a normal 15 hour ride in a uhaul, but I kept getting stopped by those darn cops. It was definitely hard saying goodbye to my friends but well worth it. Harley my dog loves it here in a small sky rise of 13floors. We have around 50 dogs in the building or so, her friends are limit less. We go have a meal on the rooftop deck and watch the boats everyday,also we go to the beach, and a dog park or dog beach everyday. On Oct. 14, she turned 1years old, and my sister Debra & aunt Andrea with some others from around the building made it to her birthday party. While at church she jumped up and ate all of her birthday cake, oh well what can you do, she even had a short visit from Geoffrey Aaron Carlson aka the Artist who is one of my bestees from Omaha. Love you
I realized that living my 5 years down in Texas has kinda instilled in me a little racist stance at times, that will not be happening here in Chicago. My last person to give me hug and send me off my was my friend of color Charles, and the first one to help me move in was another person of color-Hector. After the 3rd time of him offering to help me unload my uhaul, i took him up on his offer, and we immediately started up conversation and we realized we both have a Nebraska connection. He lived his only two worst years of his life married and living in Grand Island Nebraska. Poor guy. He works with cars and paints/maintenance. We have hung out almost everyday these past 3 weeks. I know some of you may look down on me for this one, but I really don't give a crap. I found a bar you can bring your dog into. I love it and so does Harley. I have met some friends Geo and his Spanish German Shepard named Toro, and also Rob and Sascha with their two pugs. We hang all the time and the dogs get along really good. I am still looking for a job, and hopefully will be landing one real soon.
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Moving in with ELIZABETH TAYLOR in Chicago!!

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When you read that opening statement of my usual closing to the current blog, what comes to mind. Let me tell you my version.

I moved here from Omaha, with a quick stint in Vegas and this Thanksgiving of 2007 will mark a 4 year investment into one of the fastest growing mega church's around... fellowshipchurch.com Dallas and FC has changed my life, I am eternally grateful to the people I did meet that would allow me to have what ever influence I had on them and many have thanked me for my "invaluable commitment to friendship, in which we will never find in another person like yourself, you will be undoubtedly missed."

With those wonderful comments, I will bow, and take a good long breath with a sigh of satisfaction that I was able to take over 80 people to a worship service like they have never experienced...http://www.blogger.com/www.fellowshipchurch.com/splash/. I found a place on the 3rd day this past week. God is definitely orchestrating this whole move to Chicago. Nobody ever finds a place in less than a month. I am 4 miles north of downtown Chicago or the "Loop", 2 blocks from the lake and 1 mile from a dog beach. I'm moving to the new up and coming Edgewater/Andersenville area. Great community that I am moving into. YOU know us Thompson's when we do anything, its always REAL BIG. This old Hilton hotel that was converted into apartments was previously owned by the one and only ELIZABETH TAYLOR, so with that being said, I got an awesome apartment and I owe it all to Geoffrey Carlson, who found this awesome place only 5 train stops north of him. THX geoff!

So Monday and Tuesday I will begin to pack, this upcoming Wednesday September 26 I fly to Omaha, for my 15 year class reunion, Sunday night fly back. Monday & Tuesday pack and load trailer and pull out that Wednesday morning at 5am, never to look back and hoping to pull into Chicago by 3pm on October 3 with a smile on face and my dog harley's.

I have learned lots of things here in my time, some good, some bad. My experience over all has been somewhat positive, but I had my fair share of trials. I have become really critical, a little on a racist stance, and very pro me, and that is not what Christ would have me live like. Not everybody in the DFW area is fake and materiallistic but a good fair share is and they don't even realize it. ***FOR ALL MY fake so called friends, get real, quit being so fake and phony like a $4 dollar bill. Live life like no one is watching, and if the earth is your playground or stage. The only 1 watching that matters is the one who continues to give you life...God is the only audience I live for. Goodbye Texas...hello to Chapter 3 of my new life in Christ, in the "Windy City Chicago" here I come."READY?? :)

Summer of 2007 Rethinking Jesus Naked...

Well I'm back...this summer I decided to take a step back and examine my life and really ask myself why am I here?, am I of influence to people? So I stopped my life in the real world of journaling for the summer...a little sabbatical to step back and realize Ineed2change.com. God has been keeping my busy with me counseling a few couples, and of course trying to let people see in my life of me trying to real in a really fake world.

I really learned a lot of over the summer, and I will try and fill you in on the jam packed summer which was unforgettable. Please don't start singing...lol. Ed Young my senior pastor from Fellowship has been gone traveling on speaking engagements since May 15. He is back this weekend with a prelude mini-series, called "The HOUSE".

MARK YOUR CALENDARS ))) 09-08-07 a very significant weekend in the life of fellowshipchurch.com. It's going to be the biggest series ( people are all ready talking about this one, nation wide,) we have ever done only 2nd to the Just Lust series. The t.v. commericals are getting ready to air, the banners for all the buildings are made, the interstate billboards are getting ready to be hung, and they just finished a massive flier/mailing invite. I am just waiting for Ed to call me personally to invite me to the kick off (we do things in the bulk down south!)Why I say that is this past month for the 2nd year in a row FellowshipChurch.com was voted "Most Influential Church" in the Nation. All I can say to that is go God!

I have had one major event per month starting this past April and running through Christmas. April for Easter Kim&Jeff Fornoff along with Shane Kardell, Cheryl Reineke and her man Jeff spent 5 fun fill days with me and went to church with me. May I had a huge birthday bash and a another friend came for 4 days.

June I had two wedding and a graduation to attend, July Shane Kardell came down and met my dis function family for 5 days(can you say drama?). August we all went camping in PottsVille Texas and I just got back from hanging out my pops, seeing Nan & Papa in the nursing home, also the Fries family reunion this summer was in Branson we all enjoyed chillin and catchin up over 15 years.

The last weekend of September I am back in Omaha which I have been gone from for 3 years. WOW. I have my 15 year class reunion and seeing all the change happening in the Big O. October my father and he is best friend will be visiting me in the end of October.

Thanksgiving this year I will be spending with my extended dis functional family AND with my sisters in Kenosha Wisconsin, and Christmas and New Years will be spent somewhere in the heart of Mexico. Una Mos Cervaza Porfavor!!!

This rainy summer has also been filled with the drama that comes with these crazy friends. A bar fight, getting strangled on fathers day, 2nd bust for mary jane in the car for my friend who I had to bail out again,(NOT ME) a knock down drag out fight in the middle of downtown Dallas with the drunks, and last but not least...

I am a father for the 2nd time again. Yes it will be the last, but this 8 month old bundle of Joy has brought me to loving kids again. She is a wonderful addition to the Thompson Family and dad met her last weekend and fell in love with her. He name is Harley and she is a 25pd Doxson, Rottweiler, beagle, basset hound. She has brought life back into the family.

Well to say the least I have been busy, but I forsure know that what I have learned this summer is far greater than anything a school will teach you. What God has been teaching me is to "Honor God, Love people". It is not easy, but the rewards have been a blessing to my life. I had to let go of some people in my life, that just didnt want to be helped. The biggest loser that I didn't want to say goodbye to was David Thompson. This kid has issues that I pray no one has to encounter them before he stops fighting with God and giving up and dying to himself. You cant help a person who is a fake, lying, deceiving, manipulative "so called christian" who cant even tell his own parents, pastor, youth pastor, or friends the truth. PLEASE PRAY FOR THIS KID, he has alot of growing up to do, and it ultimately almost cost me my life. Enough on that subject.

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Mexico Bound for my Birthday:)

Well it is the day before my birthday, and I am getting ready to go to Mexico with a really close friend from work named Pablo. He is 35 and has 6 kids and is from the town of Cuernavaca Mexico which is 50 miles from Mexico City. I leave at 145pm and he left today. I am little nervous, but really ready for a nice vacation. It has been a hard first month of being the bar manager/asst. GM, but I think over all, I have done really good. Managing people is not easy that is for sure. I have been there since it has opened, and I think people respect me. So far in the first month let alone first week, I have had to fire one person, (which I totally enjoyed, just cause I am an ass****), and I had to hire a new girl. This weekend at FC, I went with Shelly, her husband John couldn't make it, and they were talking about walking through the right doors to avoid divorce..

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Whats Going down in the Garage weekend? Happy 420:)

Well today is 4:20, its a national holiday for some, and just another day for most. I of course celebrated it in full grand fashion. As I sat back with my friends and realized that I had my silly little perma-grin going, I began to laugh. I was thinking, it has been a really hard week for me, but extremely life changing for some. How can someone, wake up and decide to flip out and began to take another persons life. The Virginia Tech massacre is such a sad reality of how people that I even know, don't take life serious enough to destroy someone elses. It is very sad. I would sad indeed.
Well, I miss my friends that came down to visit me. Here is a little break down of who did what, who did who, and all that juicy jazz gossip. Thirsty Thursday was a huge success, which entangled 15 people, playing drinking games in my apt. Friday morning we enjoyed a nice massage, and then went into Dallas to check out the scene, downtown, west end, where they filmed Dallas from the 80's, we shot 9mm baby squirrels(which are guns, no we didnt shoot squirrels) at a shooting range.
Saturday was spent in Ft. Worth, meeting my girl Karla at the zoo, checking out the art scene, the cattle drive at Historic Stockyards, and then off to Sundance Square for a surprise concert with Trace Atkins and of course lots of beer, laughs, and the downtown water falls that just reopened. The concert was the main surprise, along with Ryan trying to be young again, and doing a complete face plant after jumping off a high ledge, oh to be young again??

Sunday, we woke up and went to church, then we dropped off Kimmie and Jeff at the airport. Cheryl, Ryan, and I went to the blue mesa Addison for an awesome free Sunday brunch and then off to the Texas Motor Speedway to check out all the rednecks tailgating. Monday morning was not too hard waking up from $2.00 Texas beers at one of my favorite bars the Flying Saucer. I ran them to the airport and then I was off to work. It was an awesome time, and I was able to meet Cheryl's boytoy Ryan, which I think will fit in just fine in the group that has more drama for their momma's. Peace, I m out.
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Going down "in the Garage" weekend...

has been a success. The gang made it in safe and sound Thursday night at 730pm, but we did have to wait for the baggage for 30 minutes, which sucked. Cheryl played a joke on me and told me that Ryan didn't come because they got in a huge fight and bailed out. When we almost got to the baggage claim, he all of sudden mysterly popped up. I got punked. Thirsty Thursday was a success.
Pictures to follow soon...
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Good Friday and Easter weekend in the south

a huge cold front came in last night and it is a bit nippy. Easter weekend will be a bit chilly, and I know there are forecasting ran for Sunday morning, Hopefully it will pass so all the church's who have planned for a sunrise service can still do it.
People have emailed me and really want to know if I enhanced my picture on my myspace account and the answer is no. I really look that good, kids and yes the wait is melting off. Check it out for yourself if you want.http://www.myspace.com/randypaulthompson

Looking forward to having a few friends from Omaha come and visit me, you can check out my calendar of events in my life on the front of my blog spot, or check them it out here.
Tomorrow night at 5pm, I am going to just one of Fellowshipchurch.com's 17 Easter services around the metroplex. Enjoy the weekend and have a happy Easter!!
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April Fools weekend download...

was a little uneventful, but still drama free.I'm trying to move beyond two people that were in my life, but are no longer. How does one do that? Better question how does that person go to sleep at night knowing that he is a fake, lying deceptive, manipulating bastard that only cares for himself. I guess the guilt will eat him alive. I am over past relationships, but the memories still haunt me. Does anybody have a way to get rid a manager, but not fire them, so they can't collect unemployment. Pass on the info.

This weekend at Fellowship it was supposed to be Ed Young Sr. and Ed Jr decided to do a remake version from 3 months ago as a Easter plug to invite our friends and family. Saturday night 2 friends and I went to an arena football game, that was really fun, came back to my place and chilled and threw the football.

The count down has begun, nine days till the gang is all here.

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Chicago will never be the same...

but I guess I wont be either. Nobody knew it, but I got in a day early and hung out with a friend of mine who just graduated from mortician school and lives in the heart of Chicago. He called me Tuesday morning and said when you get in tonight, I have a little meet and greet welcome to "Chicago party" for you. He picked up at the airport and went on the train to his funeral parlor that he owns. He saved 3 fresh bodies that just came in that morning for us to work on together and I told him I was really interested into see how death works and really trying to see if I could let go of my moms passing. I pumped blood out of the one, and sawed a guys chest in half to look at his heart and lungs to see what they look like after years and years of smoking. Oh yes, by the way....we did have to have a couple of martinis and nice blunt for me to even walk down the stairs of his house which is the mortuary house. Very cool and very intriguing how life works and ends.
Wednesday I spent by myself in solitude and that night meet Geoffry Carlson and his new boyfriend and we all went out for drinks in Wrigley ville, which is where they live. The next day I literally walked all around downtown Chicago until lunch when I met my good friend David Kelly from the Upstream where we use to work together. Friday afternoon I met my sister and niece and we checked out the whole Belmont District from 3pm until 9pm. TONS OF fun.

Saturday morning we woke up and drove down to Chicago for the dyeing of the river at 1045am and then walked to Balboa street for the noon time parade.We were able to keep a little warm with our first time to a Cerality Cafe. It was the first time me and my sister Debra and I had a really good time by ourselves hanging out together. My friend Brennan Sanders that I have known since 94 came down and spent the later part of the afternoon with us and him and I took the city, just us guys. After dodging all the drunk people that were running crazy through the streets of downtown Chicago for St. Patty's Day we had a nice relaxing dinner a few too many Guinness', and then off to Bin 36 to sample some wines. One of my favorite spots in Chi-town and it is right next door to the infamous House of Blues which is right on the river. It was an awesome weekend that confirmed to me that in a year I will be living in CHICAGO. Watch out chi-town, "Big Ran is coming back to the Midwest with a little Texas heat!" Count on IT

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Christmas Services pictures are out...

This year Fellowship took a huge step to really feed the need of Christ more in our life with a church wide fast. "Larger than Life" series was a huge success along with the famous wrestler who is a believer Hulk Hogan as co-speaker with Ed Young for this whole month. The last weekend of January we ended the series and fast with a church wide communion. The Saturday nights service was filled with a few Dallas Cowboys football players who helped out with the service. FC grapevine and Miami Florida campus gave away 2 pairs of free vip super bowl tickets with a camera crew that filmed this remarkable event the whole way.

We had a church wide "Larger than Life" new worship cd live taping and is now out and literally running off the shelves. People have been asking what the Christmas services looked like this year, check them out here. Just find Fellowship Church Gallery.
Looking forward to the next 3 days, my best friend from Omaha Matthew Smith will be in town to visit me since I have gotten out of the hospital. Matthew has been a rock and pillar of faith to keep pointing me in the direction that I always need to be moving... forward with my life. Thank you for all the time, energy, love and support you have shown me through this difficult time that you always said, "randall, your one of my best friends we will get through this, don't worry buddy, we will get through this." Friends are good God thing, that I don't take for granted.
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Where have I been???

That is a really good question many people ask, but only few will ever know the answer?. Its hard to see life through eyes that might be a little blurred. I have been gone for a while, but I am back and gaining strength. God leads us through valleys and mountains. I am praying that it will seem like more mountains will come my way, but the valleys have been also a good learning lab and honestly a true blessing in disguise.

I know this will be a shock to most people, but I have been in a psychiatric hospital for a while, due to overwhelming life circumstances that have deemed me to check my self in and get help. It was not easy, but with the support of many friends and family behind me, it made it a lot easier. I was very thankful for all the many people who came and visited me while I was there, and made my day go a lot faster waiting for that 6pm hour each evening to come so quick with anticipation of who was out there to visit me.

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