Not me, but what the hell, lets go for it. 2007 for me was a good year for growth, but boy was it painful. Luckily I had a good doctor that got me on some depression medication that changed my life for the better. I was in a relationship with a younger christian friend that ultimately helped put me into a psych ward in Jan. I knew and so did all of our friends what was really going on. Now in the back of my mind, we were just friends, but it sure didn't look that way. Alot of lies, deception, manipulation and a cold heart that Satan had a hold of, is the only way that I could even begin to describe my end to this friendship that started good with David Thompson, but ended horribly.
Basically, I had to cut ties with him, and he was the one to do it, hard-yes. I look back and when I thought he was going to visit me in the psych ward, and I get out early, only to find him in MY BED with his girlfriend, that was the final straw. It was the best decision I could of ever made considering you can't really blame him, considering his parents are completely to blame for what kind of fake "supposed Christian family" they claim to be as they had no disregard as to me letting them and the world know what kind of son, they ended up with-FAKE. I only pray for this family and hope I would never ever cross paths with them considering how heartless they really are. Don't continue to help people that really don't want to be helped or to help themselves. YOUR WAISTING YOUR TIME.
Second worst decision of my life for 2007-continuing to work at a place that was started as a disaster, that kept on spiraling downward. I moved to Chicago with a new fresh start on Oct 3, 2007-the best decision I made. I still remember one of my Texas moms words of advice, Randall go start your life over, God is giving you a new fresh start. I only ever plan on staying in a place for around 5 years, and I did cut it short by 7 months, but when God opens the door. YOU better run through it.
I miss Fellowshipchurch.com, brad davies, TGIFriday crew, johnny, a few peeps at Blue Mesa, debbie provence, mike the morman, Szami, mark, and of course my best friend the whole time I was in Texas - derrick wuistinger. It was hard to leave and I still shed a few tears once in a while, but all in all, 2 many fake ass people in Texas, that supposedly care, not about you, but what they can get out of you.
Not by my choice or knowledge of it, but I am living in one of the largest gay communities in the U.S in Chicago, it is a 3x3 mile radius that needs Jesus, who doesn't right? Your probably asking yourself as to why Chicago? One of my best friends from Omaha is here Geoffrey Carlson and his man, and my sisters are closer to me now, Kenosha and Minneapolis. Of course I always need and want more God in my life, http://www.willowcreekcommunitychurch.com/ is now my new home church. IN 2007, it was ranked the #1 Most Influential Church in America-enough said.
Now, don't ya'll jump to conclusions, even though I really don't care what anyone thinks of me anymore. So with that being said, I love it here, for most people being gay in Chicago is really no big deal. People don't come out of the closet here, because that is so 90's ago, but just being you, is one of the best things that I could of ever ran into here. I am loved, accepted, not judged, and not scared to speak my mind, or be the man of God I know He wants me to be. I hate labels and my new "Chicago best friend" Gio, is one of the most amazing human beings I could ask for in a friend. He is so encouraging to me, to just be honest, open, and screw what ever anybody else thinks, he continually reminds me to only be concerned with my most favorite relationship I have-with GOD. He at times has given me the shirt off his back, literally, he daily makes me aware that I am loved even if at times I only feel it by GOD.
So you are probably asking yourself by now, what is up? I have no answer for you, if you want to put a label on me, put me in a box, stereotype me into a lower class than what ever you call normal, well sorry, but screw OFF. I certainly don't need your friendship and I am glad that I am finally getting to know the real me, I would hope you would continue on with me in my journey as I am finding that life is definitely worth living to the fullest here in Chicago-the north side.
